Hi guys,
So I had my 22nd birthday on Wednesday. I celebrated it alone but was happy because I felt motivated to upload it on my YouTube channel.
I remember when I was 10 listening to Taylor Swift 22 and wondering what my life would look like now... And here I am at 22, raped and diagnosed with a mental disorder...
I haven't thought about this website til now as I thought the Lamotrigine was helping (I have schizoaffective disorder) but now I'm crying and wanting to kms and I don't know why.
I am also shocked (not really tbh, I mean it's the UK were all sensitive bastards here) about the whole UK online thing! I live in the UK but I love this website. I'm so tired of the fake positivity. I wish someone could give me the courage to die without panicking.
Please help me someone. I'm desperate to die. A lot of people die before 22 like Lil Peep, Juice Wrld e.t.c. I was so ready to be one of them. But no, I'm 22. I'm starting to be afraid of aging. Better to die now than to die over time, pain and struggle. This world is so fucked up...
So I had my 22nd birthday on Wednesday. I celebrated it alone but was happy because I felt motivated to upload it on my YouTube channel.
I remember when I was 10 listening to Taylor Swift 22 and wondering what my life would look like now... And here I am at 22, raped and diagnosed with a mental disorder...
I haven't thought about this website til now as I thought the Lamotrigine was helping (I have schizoaffective disorder) but now I'm crying and wanting to kms and I don't know why.
I am also shocked (not really tbh, I mean it's the UK were all sensitive bastards here) about the whole UK online thing! I live in the UK but I love this website. I'm so tired of the fake positivity. I wish someone could give me the courage to die without panicking.
Please help me someone. I'm desperate to die. A lot of people die before 22 like Lil Peep, Juice Wrld e.t.c. I was so ready to be one of them. But no, I'm 22. I'm starting to be afraid of aging. Better to die now than to die over time, pain and struggle. This world is so fucked up...
