Hi! I just need some help guys... what's the easiest, most effective, quickest, most painless, & free (or cheap) way to ctb?

[cherryblossom789]

Basiclly what the title says. I want to ctb in the easiest, most painless, quickest, & free (or cheap) way. By quickest, I mean a method where I will just die immediately, so no one can find me while I'm still unconscious & bring me to the hospital & I could potentially survive but I'll be permanently disabled.

Tbh Idk if this is the right section of this site to post this thread in bc I'm a newbie (I've had my account for a while but this is the first time I'm posting a thread) so pls bear with me & pls be kind to me!

A little context: I've been depressed & had anxiety for almost 8 years now. I've always had low self-esteem so I've always been a nervous & awkward person. I've gotten to a point where I'm mostly numb now. The only feelings I can still feel are tiredness & boredom. That's it. And what kind of life can you have when you can only experience two feelings? So yeah, I've *finally* decided that it's time.

A little bit more context: I'm almost 22 but I still live with my family. I live in a country in Asia where it's normal for multiple generations to live under one roof. So most people here live with their family their whole life so they've never moved out. But sometimes people here do move out, for college or work. So I've thought about moving out countless times but every time I don't actually move out bc I'm broke & I don't have a lot of life skills. I'm not even in college like most of my old classmates. My depression is so bad that I can't even go to college. I barely even graduated high school. I grew up sheltered in a traditional, conservative family hence the lack of life skills. And my family's pretty toxic which is another reason why I wanted to move out. But alas, I feel that it's too late. I could've moved out after I graduated high school but, well, I got too busy with my self-pity that eventually weeks turned into months and months turned into years... And here I am now. With zero friends & zero social life. I've never had my first kiss, went to a good party, gone to a concert, travelled solo... my life sucks like that. So yeah.

All I'm asking is your help. I'm truly exhausted & I can't see a future for myself. That's all. Thank u in advance, guys.
I wish I could ctb before I turn 22 next month though. Idk maybe I just don't like the number 22...

 

[FuneralCry]

All I wish for is that such a method existed, I'd be long gone if there are ways to just cease existing peacefully with no more pain and no more suffering and I always suffer so unbearably from how I cannot just have that option, I hope you find peace.

 

[Forveleth]

Welcome to SaSu. Sorry life has brought you here.

This question, and ones very similar, get asked here all the time. Unfortunately, the answer is that that is not how killing yourself works. Every method usually has some component of expense, accessibility, ease of doing and pain and suffering and generally there is no method that checks all of the boxes in the direction that most people want.

Also, in the rules for this site, we are not allowed to directly tell someone how to kill themselves. Suicide is a deeply personal choice, so you need to do the research to find the answer yourself. See the thread below for resources.

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[LongJacks]

Basiclly what the title says. I want to ctb in the easiest, most painless, quickest, & free (or cheap) way. By quickest, I mean a method where I will just die immediately, so no one can find me while I'm still unconscious & bring me to the hospital & I could potentially survive but I'll be permanently disabled.

Tbh Idk if this is the right section of this site to post this thread in bc I'm a newbie (I've had my account for a while but this is the first time I'm posting a thread) so pls bear with me & pls be kind to me!

A little context: I've been depressed & had anxiety for almost 8 years now. I've always had low self-esteem so I've always been a nervous & awkward person. I've gotten to a point where I'm mostly numb now. The only feelings I can still feel are tiredness & boredom. That's it. And what kind of life can you have when you can only experience two feelings? So yeah, I've *finally* decided that it's time.

A little bit more context: I'm almost 22 but I still live with my family. I live in a country in Asia where it's normal for multiple generations to live under one roof. So most people here live with their family their whole life so they've never moved out. But sometimes people here do move out, for college or work. So I've thought about moving out countless times but every time I don't actually move out bc I'm broke & I don't have a lot of life skills. I'm not even in college like most of my old classmates. My depression is so bad that I can't even go to college. I barely even graduated high school. I grew up sheltered in a traditional, conservative family hence the lack of life skills. And my family's pretty toxic which is another reason why I wanted to move out. But alas, I feel that it's too late. I could've moved out after I graduated high school but, well, I got too busy with my self-pity that eventually weeks turned into months and months turned into years... And here I am now. With zero friends & zero social life. I've never had my first kiss, went to a good party, gone to a concert, travelled solo... my life sucks like that. So yeah.

All I'm asking is your help. I'm truly exhausted & I can't see a future for myself. That's all. Thank u in advance, guys.
I wish I could ctb before I turn 22 next month though. Idk maybe I just don't like the number 22...

Probably N but it's very hard to obtain, but most peaceful way to go and technically it's not expensive... it's expensive however to obtain illegally for obvious reasons

It's hard to pinpoint a method to your needs (Which are very common needs btw I've asked the same thing before on here xD)

Let's say all methods have their own pros and cons it's rather what you'd choose or prefer, check this https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/suicide-resource-compilation.3/ I hope I helped a bit