I really wanna commiyt suicide but I can't

[chlorine]

I'm done. Done. Done with everything. Done with life. I wanna kill myself so bad. But I can't.. I'm in a community and they won't let me go out alone. If I could I'd jump in front of a train. Can someone help me figure out a way to ctb inside here?

 

[ExhaustedExistence]

Can I ask you what community it is?

 

[chlorine]

Can I ask you what community it is?

It's an open community where you can even go out, exept for me cause I'm the worst case and they fear I mij t kill myself

 

[Superdeterminist]

It's an open community where you can even go out, exept for me cause I'm the worst case and they fear I mij t kill myself

Sorry what do you mean "you can even go out" that seems to suggest going out is not a standard freedom?

 

[ExhaustedExistence]

It's an open community where you can even go out, exept for me cause I'm the worst case and they fear I mij t kill myself

Sorry, I don't get it. Is it a psych ward?

 

[chlorine]

Sorry what do you mean "you can even go out" that seems to suggest going out is not a standard freedom?

Yeah here in italy in communities you usually don't go out

Sorry, I don't get it. Is it a psych ward?

No, I just got out from there and now I'm in an institution

 

[ExhaustedExistence]

No, I just got out from there and now I'm in an institution

So I guess it's kinda better than psych ward. Are you voluntarily there? Couldn't you just leave?

 

[chlorine]

So I guess it's kinda better than psych ward. Are you voluntarily there? Couldn't you just leave?

No, not without my parents and my psychiatrist consent

 

[WornOutLife]

Being monitored 24/7 certainly sucks.

I don't know what to tell you because when I was forced to live with my parents last year and I just couldn't do anything "suspicious".

Hope you can feel better soon, somehow.

Hugs,

Matt

 

[chlorine]

Can I ask you what community it is?

What do

Being monitored 24/7 certainly sucks.

I don't know what to tell you because when I was forced to live with my parents, I just couldn't do anything "suspicious".

Hope you can feel better soon, somehow.

Hugs,

Matt

Thanks for the support

 

[ExhaustedExistence]

No, not without my parents and my psychiatrist consent

I'm really sorry. I don't know what I should tell you. It seems you don't have any good opportunity to ctb.

At least this suffering won't last forever and you will be free someday. Wish you the best.

 

[ShePastAway]

I can understand how you feel, having no freedom and being monitored feels debilitating. I'm not sure what to suggest as I don't know your setting, but if you can find something to distract yourself and keep occupied, like a creative hobby, that you can do during this time as being alone with your thoughts can really make you feel terrible.
I hope that you will find your freedom and feel better soon.
Wishing you love and all the best.

 

[FuneralCry]

I know how you feel, it really is hard to die. Many methods require not being found for a certain amount of time to actually succeed. I think as humans we should have a right to a peaceful death if we want one, people shouldn't be forced to suffer. Having a lack of freedom must be an awful thing. I wish you the best.