I made it to Beachy Hd

[SecretDissociation]

It's impossible to be certain from a photograph, but in the photo I was referring to those look like insulating posts, and the orange-coloured wire looks to me like one kind of wire sometimes used with electric fences (the kind with thin strands of metal wrapped aroung a plastic core). I maintain a long electric fence on my own property, so I do have some experience with them. I might be mistaken, but it's something to bear in mind if you are thinking of going there.

I'm already here TT these pictures are all from today and from me! I've visited the cliffs and did the whole hike already! Just need to jump. I'm just sitting in a hotel room now, building up the courage to jump (or not)

Lovely offer but I probably can't take that sadly as I can't freely go outside cus of my parents restrictions and probably won't be able to anytime soon :<

I'll hope for your freedom <3

 

[Linda]

I'm already here TT these pictures are all from today and from me! I've visited the cliffs and did the whole hike already! Just need to jump. I'm just sitting in a hotel room now, building up the courage to jump (or not)

I'll hope for your freedom <3

Take your time and think this through. If you're not 100% sure, then don't jump. Beachy Head isn't going to go away, and will still be there for you in the future if you need it.
If you do decide to jump, I hope all goes well for you.

 

[SecretDissociation]

Walk of Shame from Beachy Head at 9pm because there are four parked police cars and I refuse to be interrupted mid run and jump and hospitalised.

Honestly I'm going to go watch the sunset tomorrow rethink if I'll jump then and recuperate if I don't. All it takes is one jump and I can come back anytime. Any. Time. I'll plan this better next time.

Who knew Easter Monday would bring many police cars to Beachy Head??

It's been a depressing day but a bit fun at the same time I did enjoy the hike a little.
If I'm alive and anyone wants to double triple quadruple up with me please I am so desperate. All I need is a two weeks worth notice TT and meticulous planning. I think this trip gave me a lot of insight into the town and what to do tomorrow (most probably) next time.

 

[SecretDissociation]

I am now doing my morning sunset hike, before just chilling and going down to the station and heading home.

I think I learnt a lot on this trip both about myself and the area. I'll just come back next time.

For now I'll just dump some pictures here until the end of my trip.

The dark photo is of the stars! I don't see stars in London so it was nice to go out and see them.

The rest are from today and are of the moment photos (literally taken 5 minutes before this thread comment was written!)
0618. Not a person that the eye can see.

Good time to die would be around now. Although by the time I reach the desired area there might be people.

Here this bible quote monument I'm not a fan of


0621. Also forgot to mention there are no police or coastguard cars. No patrols and no people. One person around 30 minutes in distance behind me.

The occasional motor vehicle travelling by.
0626. Person behind me is gone. Officially no-one here but me.

Thinking of jumping. My brain and me is telling me to do it. My body says no. I'm fighting demons haha.

 

[asthedayends00]

I'm assuming you didn't attempt? Awesome pics, can you get one looking straight down at the jumping spot?

 

[SecretDissociation]

I am now doing my morning sunset hike, before just chilling and going down to the station and heading home.

I think I learnt a lot on this trip both about myself and the area. I'll just come back next time.

For now I'll just dump some pictures here until the end of my trip.

The dark photo is of the stars! I don't see stars in London so it was nice to go out and see them.

The rest are from today and are of the moment photos (literally taken 5 minutes before this thread comment was written!)
0618. Not a person that the eye can see.

Good time to die would be around now. Although by the time I reach the desired area there might be people.

Here this bible quote monument I'm not a fan of

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0621. Also forgot to mention there are no police or coastguard cars. No patrols and no people. One person around 30 minutes in distance behind me.

The occasional motor vehicle travelling by.
0626. Person behind me is gone. Officially no-one here but me.

Thinking of jumping. My brain and me is telling me to do it. My body says no. I'm fighting demons haha.

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The doubtful thoughts come running back in walking to the cliff spot with the hardest landing.

I've looked over the edge. It doesn't look that bad. Nobody is here. I should be free. I should be. I'm overthinking this.

I'm assuming you didn't attempt? Awesome pics, can you get one looking straight down at the jumping spot?

Still in the process. Yeah I'll try and grab one for you. The SI is strong with this one.

 

[asthedayends00]

Share a pic looking straight down

 

[SecretDissociation]

Share a pic looking straight down

This is near the lighthouse. I don't think it's high enough to jump so I'm not going to try doing it from here. Hella scary though.

This is near the lighthouse. I don't think it's high enough to jump so I'm not going to try doing it from here. Hella scary though.

Parachute person. Hovered above me while I was at the cliff edge. They're still flying all the way near Seven Sisters now. Sounded like a helicopter but doesn't look like one.

Another.


Really scared of jumping and surviving. The cliff is very unstable. Thinking what if I jump and survive. Ill
Be in so much pain until rescue comes

 

[SecretDissociation]

I can't do it I can't jump. I sat on the edge legs dangling. I stood up and stood on the edge and when I went to get closer I lost footing and nearly had a heart attack.

I can't do it. What if I don't die and I survive? I can't. I can't do it I am so sorry to myself but I can't. I need to try hanging again. I can't jump off. I tried and I scrambled to get to more stable footing. I can't.

 

[hang in there]

I can't do it I can't jump. I sat on the edge legs dangling. I stood up and stood on the edge and when I went to get closer I lost footing and nearly had a heart attack.

I can't do it. What if I don't die and I survive? I can't. I can't do it I am so sorry to myself but I can't. I need to try hanging again. I can't jump off. I tried and I scrambled to get to more stable footing. I can't. View attachment 164924

Absolutely breathtaking photos. Thank you for sharing.
I'm so sorry you could not do what you wanted to do. It seems like after the rescue squads disappeared you had a lot more privacy. I wonder if you brought a backpack with some liquor, you could sit and drink alone until you were able to overcome your instincts.
I hope you have a better rest of your night.

 

[bankai]

I do get your point about possibly surviving, scary.

 

[SecretDissociation]

Absolutely breathtaking photos. Thank you for sharing.
I'm so sorry you could not do what you wanted to do. It seems like after the rescue squads disappeared you had a lot more privacy. I wonder if you brought a backpack with some liquor, you could sit and drink alone until you were able to overcome your instincts.
I hope you have a better rest of your night.

Thank you. I reckon that I just need to get rid of the things holding me back, and definitely pack some alcohol next time, or something drowsy!. Or both.

I'll just live for now. Like another reply said the cliff is not going anywhere (apart from receding slowly) and i'll have other opportunities.

Thanks for kind words! You have a good night too

I do get your point about possibly surviving, scary.

Yeah, it just didn't look high enough when I went and peaked over the edges more clearly. Very scary thought to jump and just be damaged down there waiting for help or waiting to die

 

[asthedayends00]

jeez that def didn't look high enough for some reason. Awesome pics, glad u didn't attempt and fail. Always next time. Godspeed

 

[LittleMagician]

It looks beautiful <3 hope you enjoy

 

[shineboy2k15taliban]

where is this? scenery looks beautiful if i was there to ctb i'd be so fucking fascinated instead by the view it would be enough to give me hope to keep going i'm really weak when it comes to nature

 

[Linda]

jeez that def didn't look high enough for some reason. Awesome pics, glad u didn't attempt and fail. Always next time. Godspeed

It's over 500 feet (at the highest point).
Incidentally, there are much higher sea cliffs in Britain. (The highest one I know of is over 1100 feet.) The reason Beachy Head is so popular for ctb is that it's easy to get to from London.

 

[SecretDissociation]

where is this? scenery looks beautiful if i was there to ctb i'd be so fucking fascinated instead by the view it would be enough to give me hope to keep going i'm really weak when it comes to nature

Beachy Head in South UK - East Suessex! Yes, it was really pretty and I felt Zen. Really hard to muster courage to jump TT

It's over 500 feet (at the highest point).
Incidentally, there are much higher sea cliffs in Britain. (The highest one I know of is over 1100 feet.) The reason Beachy Head is so popular for ctb is that it's easy to get to from London.

Yeah, but at the time I was standing there it looked really short. I was standing at one of the highest points, at around 530~ feet. I think SI just made my brain perceive it as not enough. But when time comes for the next plan I'd have hopefully logically ruled how high it is despite how it looks

 

[SmilingNoMore]

Stunning pics, glad you got to experience this and spend some time there. Thanks for including us in your journey.

 

[SecretDissociation]

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Also' I hope it's okay to, but I want to keep updating this thread with updates on what I'll do next, and my plans because I think Beachy Head is where I'll ctb in the future, I am now familiar with the place and feel more confident.

Also, When I was standing and dangling on the cliff edge, this old man turned out to be watching me. He approached and asked me if I was okay when I turned back and started to stroll back up the cliff. Turns out he's from the place i'm from in London. Told me to send my regards when I returned to London. He had two very cute dogs.

I'm atleast glad I didn't jump in front of him and his dogs. TT

 

[no-hope-no-future]

Any signs that give an indication where someone has jumped but never survived?

 

[SecretDissociation]

Any signs that give an indication where someone has jumped but never survived?

You'll probably see more coastguard emergency vehicles and more police vehicles, and there will be a very high probability of a helicopter with an emergency stretcher being pulled/put down to the shore/just under the cliff face. You'll know because they'll actively be taking measures to save the person.

Or else it'll be mostly around one to two vehicles, and the area won't be closed off/no detours and relatively calm.

 

[no-hope-no-future]

I've looked into this my self a bit. My understanding is that taxi drivers and people at the pub are able to profile potential jumps. Do you know if the bus service is able to do the same thing?
I believe the Eastbourne train station is approximately 4 miles away so I could potentiality walk in maybe. It seems like a beautiful place but I wonder if a reconnaissance mission maybe required before carrying out an attempt. Have you visited multiple times befor these pictures were taken? Was you ever stopped during the times you visited?

 

[SecretDissociation]

I've looked into this my self a bit. My understanding is that taxi drivers and people at the pub are able to profile potential jumps. Do you know if the bus service is able to do the same thing?
I believe the Eastbourne train station is approximately 4 miles away so I could potentiality walk in maybe. It seems like a beautiful place but I wonder if a reconnaissance mission maybe required before carrying out an attempt. Have you visited multiple times befor these pictures were taken? Was you ever stopped during the times you visited?

This was my first time going. On the first day of my stay (in which you will see mostly pictures with people!) I got off at Eastbourne station and hiked straight from the station to Beachy head.

I would really recommend scouting the area for a place you want to jump from. That's what I did, and I know where I will jump from next time.

I spent my first day hiking to Belles pout (can't remember exact spelling) and scouted the area. The next morning at around 6am I returned to watch the sunset and scouted a good area and sat dangling on the cliff edge. I unfortunately couldn't convince myself to jump. Your brain will make 530ft seem like 10cm. But I think it's alright because I will be going back again.

I took a bus back to Eastbourne to check into my hotel. The bus workers are not bothered enough to check for suicidal people. They probably won't even know where you are going or getting off. Additionally, there are barely any buses on working days and days that aren't public holidays/Sunday.

I did not use a taxi since 1. expensive 2. it's only a one hour and a half worth of hiking 3. did not want to get stopped. I didn't go to the pub also, because I didn't want to get profiled.

The chaplaincy team don't seem to patrol early in the morning, but there was a drone that had an orange chute that patrols from Beachy head to the end of Seven Sisters. If you look like you're jumping, it will hover above you, as it did above me, but after standing back it left towards seven sisters then returned back and hovered but I just stepped back again and it went away again. But I'm pretty sure this drone only works in the early mornings.

If you are to spontaneously walk in you'd really have to jump quickly and not get stopped and blend in well.

Also, I wouldn't recommend going at night, as when I tried there were many police cars and coastguard officers. It is a very bad suicide hotspot at night. You will be taken to the station or hospital and questioned.

Hope this helps!

 

[imOK]

Beautiful place. I also really like the name. "Beachy Head". I always liked the countryside in the UK.

The chaplaincy team don't seem to patrol early in the morning, but there was a drone that had an orange chute that patrols from Beachy head to the end of Seven Sisters. If you look like you're jumping, it will hover above you, as it did above me, but after standing back it left towards seven sisters then returned back and hovered but I just stepped back again and it went away again. But I'm pretty sure this drone only works in the early mornings.

"oi, you've got a loicens to stand there m8?"

The UK sound postively dystopian lately. I always thought germany was bad. At least you people still have grass. Here everything withered away because it just fucking never rains anymore.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

this was a really touching thread. it says a lot about nature that it can completely take these thoughts away, even if only for a moment. i'm really glad you weren't impulsive. if you had pushed yourself when your SI was kicking like that you could muss up the landing and fuck surviving that shit. i'm really glad you're still here. not bc i'm glad you'd planned all that just to go home but because it offers a really great perspective and commentary on SI and the power of natural forces (bodies of water are a big one) on our minds.


exactly like you and others have said, the cliff ain't going anywhere. nether is the option. it's always worth it to give it time if you're not fully in the headspace. it's in no way a small choice.

thank you for sharing your views, both thought wise, process wise, and visually. you're in my thoughts. allow yourself grace and be easy on you. we're here for you.

 

[Fuji]

I tried to jump beachy head back in October last year. The chaplaincy team found me and the police were with them. The police took me to the haven while I stayed there for a week until an inpatient bed came available, then I was admitted for a month again. The chaplaincy team are there all the time, they patrol it in a team of two, they walk both ends of the cliff.

 

[SecretDissociation]

I tried to jump beachy head back in October last year. The chaplaincy team found me and the police were with them. The police took me to the haven while I stayed there for a week until an inpatient bed came available, then I was admitted for a month again. The chaplaincy team are there all the time, they patrol it in a team of two, they walk both ends of the cliff.

That's unfortunate. I am positive there weren't any when I went. It was completely empty at 5-6am in the morning. Passerby's didn't crop by until after 0730 in the morning, and there were only two or three handfuls of people, and we were all a 15minute trek from eachother.

They patrol moreso in the winter months. This is why I plan to go in the sumer or spring and preferably on some time of bank holiday and early in the morning, again. And sometimes they patrol in two's or in one's it really depends. I'm sorry you were admitted for a month again. My worst nightmare.

this was a really touching thread. it says a lot about nature that it can completely take these thoughts away, even if only for a moment. i'm really glad you weren't impulsive. if you had pushed yourself when your SI was kicking like that you could muss up the landing and fuck surviving that shit. i'm really glad you're still here. not bc i'm glad you'd planned all that just to go home but because it offers a really great perspective and commentary on SI and the power of natural forces (bodies of water are a big one) on our minds.


exactly like you and others have said, the cliff ain't going anywhere. nether is the option. it's always worth it to give it time if you're not fully in the headspace. it's in no way a small choice.

thank you for sharing your views, both thought wise, process wise, and visually. you're in my thoughts. allow yourself grace and be easy on you. we're here for you.

Thank you for the kind words! And yes, the power of SI is underestimated. I keep wandering about how if I had jumped and ended up trying to save myself by landing on my legs what I would have been, or what if I landed on my back and somehow protected by head. Fear is powerful. <3

Beautiful place. I also really like the name. "Beachy Head". I always liked the countryside in the UK.


"oi, you've got a loicens to stand there m8?"

The UK sound postively dystopian lately. I always thought germany was bad. At least you people still have grass. Here everything withered away because it just fucking never rains anymore.

The countryside is really nice! But the silence and lack of shops drive me crazy TT (too much of a city person).

And yeah, it is sounding more dystopian. Seems to be getting worse. Why is it not raining in Germany anymore? Climate change?

 

[opheliaoveragain]

Thank you for the kind words! And yes, the power of SI is underestimated. I keep wandering about how if I had jumped and ended up trying to save myself by landing on my legs what I would have been, or what if I landed on my back and somehow protected by head. Fear is powerful. <3

you said it perfectly. all those possible changes that could happen mid air, that's exactly what I meant. but it's biologically built in, it can be involuntary in so many moments. better to be in the situation you are now and able to scout a better time when/if you become sure of this method for yourself (not doubting you at all, just commenting on how experiences like this can change how people see a method sometimes)

but the location is solid, i've known it was a spot for years. just def be careful with patrols in the future

 

[SecretDissociation]

you said it perfectly. all those possible changes that could happen mid air, that's exactly what I meant. but it's biologically built in, it can be involuntary in so many moments. better to be in the situation you are now and able to scout a better time when/if you become sure of this method for yourself (not doubting you at all, just commenting on how experiences like this can change how people see a method sometimes)

but the location is solid, i've known it was a spot for years. just def be careful with patrols in the future

<3 Thank you - Avoiding the people that patrol is and will my end of life goal haha. Hope I can 100% this method soon *lots of hugs and love*