I just want everything to stop

[kindawannacrylol]

I don't want to die in the slightest i don't want to not be alive. I just want to live happily and freely but I can't, I have no motivation, no passion. This pandemic means I'm stuck living with my abusive parents that are constantly screaming at me and putting me under loads of pressure about university. I can't do this I can feel myself losing it. I just need it all to stop.

 

[WornOutLife]

Having no motivation used to be my main problem. It's almost impossible to find it when you're really depressed but not 100% impossible.

If you're not sure about ctb, just look at ALL THE POSSIBILITIES. There has to be something which motivates you and makes your life easier.
In my case it's learning languages, gaming and having a job I love. Still, I have lots of downs and suicidal days. It seems inevitable haha