I have no one

[logar]

For basically my entite life I've had no one to ever have a close, true connection with. Family doesn't really like me all too much, and all of my friends are very surface level, to the point where you could just call them acquaintances. It's probably because I haven't really found the right people, but it's also partly my fault since I'm too afraid to actually be share personal things about myself to anyone, because for me it's incredibly difficult. So I can't talk to anyone about what has been plaguing my mind recently (my suicidal ideation), because again I don't really have a close connection with anyone, but I'm also too scared of something happening to me if they tell anybody else about it. But hey.. that's why I have SaSu! :) (However I still do strongly desire to talk to someone close about it.. even though no one meets that criteria just yet)