valentine
Student
- Apr 2, 2019
- 101
Long story short my boyfriend just broke up with me and I'm suicidal. Not specifically because of that but it's certainly not helping.
I have a couple of friends who are talking and trying to help me and it's just so unbelievably frustrating for me. I appreciate that they want to help but I don't know what to say anymore. I don't want to be consoled. I'm planning on ctb very soon and that's not something I can just talk about. At this point I just don't want anyone to talk to me at all because it won't change anything. And obviously I can't tell them about my plans because they'll call the cops or just try to talk me down. I don't feel like I can be honest with anyone and it's just exhausting.
I might try to hang myself tonight but the last time I tried my SI kicked in and I couldn't do it. I just feel completely alone and broken.
I have a couple of friends who are talking and trying to help me and it's just so unbelievably frustrating for me. I appreciate that they want to help but I don't know what to say anymore. I don't want to be consoled. I'm planning on ctb very soon and that's not something I can just talk about. At this point I just don't want anyone to talk to me at all because it won't change anything. And obviously I can't tell them about my plans because they'll call the cops or just try to talk me down. I don't feel like I can be honest with anyone and it's just exhausting.
I might try to hang myself tonight but the last time I tried my SI kicked in and I couldn't do it. I just feel completely alone and broken.
