I hate talking to people how I feel

[CaliCatCharlie]

I tried discussing with my friends about how I feel today (I know rookie mistake) and now I completely wish I hadn't. I now know that I completely wasted my fucking time. Bringing up the subject is overbearing enough because they just gloss over it and don't really respond to anything I say. They never really listen. They just repeat the same thing over and over again. Like telling me that I'm talented like it's going to change anything? Like having a small bit of talent is going to just make me not want to CTB. Telling me things will get better when it obviously wont especially in my situation. They gloss over everything I say it's so frustrating and makes me want to CTB even more. Like my FAMILY ALREADY DOES ENOUGH OF THAT ALREADY! I'm tired of no one ever listening to what I have to say and just making me feel like crap for having emotions! I'm hoping I can get over this financial stump in my life right now so I can start gathering my material to CTB hopefully by next year. I can't deal with this shit anymore.

 

[suisuiforum]

Sorry to hear that, I don't tell others about wanting to CTB for these reasons as well. People who don't experience suicidal ideation don't know what it's like, and they don't understand that a bunch of useless platitudes won't change anything. They'll think we're crazy for wasting our "talent," but it doesn't matter when we're suffering too much to use it to its full capacity.

 

[CaliCatCharlie]

Yeah and that's what I exactly what I tried to convey but it's pretty much useless. At least I know to keep my yap shut until the end of my time from now on. Guess it's time to put on the fake smile.

 

[overcomingfear]

Dont put ur happiness in other people's hands as much as u can. There's hope always, life may get better with time. Funny hoodie cat hehe

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I never talk to others about how I feel. Sorry to hear you are going through this. It isn't like anything anyone could say would make me feel better, there is nothing they can do to help, and there is no way they would ever understand in the first place. It would just frustrate me. People who are not suicidal are unable to comprehend what it is like. Platitudes just invalidate the suffering we are going through.