Venting I hate me

[Life_and_Death]

I use to talk to everyone. But not anymore. I can't do anything right. I keep blacking out and everything I say is wrong. Sounds mumbled. Doesn't make sense. Even when I'm typing I use the wrong word a lot. I hate talking to people now and I take every chance possible to avoid people

 

[Mm80]

I use to talk to everyone. But not anymore. I can't do anything right. I keep blacking out and everything I say is wrong. Sounds mumbled. Doesn't make sense. Even when I'm typing I use the wrong word a lot. I hate talking to people now and I take every chance possible to avoid people

You comr across as coherent and intelligent on here if thats any help x

 

[Life_and_Death]

You comr across as coherent and intelligent on here if thats any help x

Thank God the edit button exists lol. For the most part when typing it's more you're your. Things like that. and sometimes I catch it before it gets out. Like how I put wood instead of word

 

[XYZ]

I get you. Sadly I am no stranger to self hate. It takes a heavy toll going through life filled with hate.

My feelings of self hate and inadequacy are not related to this forum, though. SS is the one place where I don't feel like the odd one out.

Wood, word, worm, warm, worn... It's all fine. Typos can be fun Have a nice day now.

 

[Mr2005]

If I hated myself any more I'd be dead

 

[Life_and_Death]

I get you. Sadly I am no stranger to self hate. It takes a heavy toll going through life filled with hate.

My feelings of self hate and inadequacy are not related to this forum, though. SS is the one place where I don't feel like the odd one out.

Wood, word, worm, warm, worn... It's all fine. Typos can be fun Have a nice day now.

Typos can be fun as long as you aren't trying to say "kicking ass" and you press the p instead of the k....... Omg I don't wanna talk about it LOL

 

[Blueman]

I use to talk to everyone. But not anymore. I can't do anything right. I keep blacking out and everything I say is wrong. Sounds mumbled. Doesn't make sense. Even when I'm typing I use the wrong word a lot. I hate talking to people now and I take every chance possible to avoid people

I can totally relate to this. I used to be really talkative and chat to anyone.
That's all gone now. I spend nearly all my time on here instead

 

[Meditation guide]

Thank God the edit button exists lol. For the most part when typing it's more you're your. Things like that. and sometimes I catch it before it gets out. Like how I put wood instead of word

I have the same problem. I'm scared I have alzhiemers.

 

[Life_and_Death]

I have the same problem. I'm scared I have alzhiemers.

sometimes i wonder if i dont have dyslexia/something like that or if it is just my dissociation. its probably the dissociation though. its difficult to do anything right when youre blacking out

 

[BitterlyAlive]

I use to talk to everyone. But not anymore. I can't do anything right. I keep blacking out and everything I say is wrong. Sounds mumbled. Doesn't make sense. Even when I'm typing I use the wrong word a lot. I hate talking to people now and I take every chance possible to avoid people

That sounds really scary. :(

 

[BipolarGuy]

I use to talk to everyone. But not anymore. I can't do anything right. I keep blacking out and everything I say is wrong. Sounds mumbled. Doesn't make sense. Even when I'm typing I use the wrong word a lot. I hate talking to people now and I take every chance possible to avoid people

You seem like a nice person, and it upsets me when good people don't like themselves.


Yes, I'm a hypocrite :/

 

[Giraffey]

I feel this thread, that flaw in your communication which you're convinced everybody will pick up on and ridicule, humiliate and ostracise you for - I ran smack bang into that trap the first time I posted here and I've only got insufferably worse since then.

I can't say that I've noticed anything wrong with your communication, we all make typos and phrase things imperfectly; I don't think people pay much attention - they just do the correction in their mind. After all, this isn't a publishing house, you're not going to get your post sent back to you in the mail covered in the dreaded red pen (I wish it were easier to believe that though and silence the mouthy inner critic forever finding doubt).

 

[Ghost2211]

You said you're blacking out? Are you losing consciousness spontaneously or having skips in memory?

 

[Life_and_Death]

You said you're blacking out? Are you losing consciousness spontaneously or having skips in memory?

the second one more accurately describes what is happening but it physically feels more like the first one

 

[Ghost2211]

the second one more accurately describes what is happening but it physically feels more like the first one

Generally you want to get new onset neurological stuff checked out. If you've never had language and typing issue before and now suddenly do that merits a neurologist visit.