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Harry Callahan
- Feb 12, 2023
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my hesitance towards ctb is almost completely gone. i've become less anxious about it, i'm just excited now. everyone sucks, all the people in my life have made this decision so much easier. i'm pissed, but grateful. i need to die; so, at least my hesitation and guilt is (mostly) gone. i'm glad i'm not an uneasy mess over this shit anymore; but i'm so pissed i have to feel so fucking lonely and hateful just to reach that point.
i wish i could end things now. i've probably said that a lot, idk. why do the days (well, months) leading up to my death have to be the most torturous? will i really only be allowed peace once i'm dead or on the verge of dying lolol
i wish i could end things now. i've probably said that a lot, idk. why do the days (well, months) leading up to my death have to be the most torturous? will i really only be allowed peace once i'm dead or on the verge of dying lolol
