i hate being alive

[existcrisisactor]

i hate being alive
i hate having to pee all the time
i hate pooping
i hate having to shower
i hate brushing my hair
i hate my ears always feel itchy and leaking
i hate all the self maintenance
i hate all the noises from neighbors mowing their lawn
i hate the noise of cars driving by my house and loud ass trucks and motorcycles
i hate the sound of TVs im not watching in another room
i hate my height
i hate my laugh
i hate sweating
i hate being cold
i hate typing

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I looked at your post some time earlier and wasn't sure how to respond to it. Then it came to me.

I can't continue to live alone.
I can't continue to live unneeded.
I can't continue to live knowing for CERTAIN that no matter what I do, and no matter what steps I take, that I will be unable to reach the satisfactory and necessary place of either true happiness, or even contentment, that I need.

In my case, three definitive exclamations are enough for me. I could list more, but they are unnecessary. These are the reasons that I have to go.

 

[existcrisisactor]

I looked at your post some time earlier and wasn't sure how to respond to it. Then it came to me.

I can't continue to live alone.
I can't continue to live unneeded.
I can't continue to live knowing for CERTAIN that no matter what I do, and no matter what steps I take, that I will be unable to reach the satisfactory and necessary place of either true happiness, or even contentment, that I need.

In my case, three definitive exclamations are enough for me. I could list more, but they are unnecessary. These are the reasons that I have to go.

thanks for responding fren i can relate to what you said

 

[locked*n*loaded]

yw. Good luck on your journey, wherever it takes you.

 

[existcrisisactor]

yw. Good luck on your journey, wherever it takes you.

good luck to you too

 

[newave3]

Agree with your list @existcrisisactor. Most of all though I hate certain people that I come across in my daily existence. Some people are just rotten to the core.

 

[downndone2]

I agree with both lists. Literally almost everything in my life is a huge trigger.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Well, since we are sharing our lists....

- I hate being AMAB
- I hate seeing people be the AGAB I wish I was
- I hate being single and lonely
- I hate being trapped in this body
- I hate myself
- I hate my existence

 

[existcrisisactor]

Well, since we are sharing our lists....

- I hate being AMAB
- I hate seeing people be the AGAB I wish I was
- I hate being single and lonely
- I hate being trapped in this body
- I hate myself
- I hate my existence

fren idk if it counts as the same type of feelings but i would add that i hate my facial hair and always felt like it didn't belong on my face i wish it didn't grow

 

[WorthlessTrash]

fren idk if it counts as the same type of feelings but i would add that i hate my facial hair and always felt like it didn't belong on my face i wish it didn't grow

Facial hair is a part of being AMAB so naturally I inherently hate that as well. Anything and everything that reminds me of being male I hate lol Package deal basically

 

[FuneralCry]

I also hate everything about living, to me life is just a pointless experience that we go through for the sake of it, I am tired of suffering everyday and I see no point to it all. There is nothing that I enjoy or look forward to, I just want to be gone. To me, it is all completely unnecessary, we were all perfectly fine not existing until we were forced to live. More than anything I wish that I was never born in the first place.

 

[existcrisisactor]

I also hate everything about living, to me life is just a pointless experience that we go through for the sake of it, I am tired of suffering everyday and I see no point to it all. There is nothing that I enjoy or look forward to, I just want to be gone. To me, it is all completely unnecessary, we were all perfectly fine not existing until we were forced to live. More than anything I wish that I was never born in the first place.

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