I Give Up

[Carlotta16]

What do you do when everything you have ever done to help yourself feel better no longer works. When everything you used to have enjoyment doing no longer means anything to you, and you hate every single minute of it? When you have tried all the things people tell you to try but it doesn't get better. When there is nothing else left to try. Do you keep going and live in misery for the rest of your life? Or do you admit defeat?

 

[jimmy7754]

That's how I feel.

 

[Soulless Angel]

You don't do either, you sit back, breathe, and rethink life, your options, try and find something different, amuse the masses, seek the path you haven't yet explored, if then you feel no better, that's when you say fuck it, grab a bottle, and drown in your own sorrows with no damns given

 

[Carlotta16]

That's how I feel.

I'm so sorry that you also feel this way. It's such a horrible and lonely place to be. I just don't know what else I am ment to do now

 

[jimmy7754]

I've tried it all.. volunteering, church singing, sports… countless things that use to help me cope.. but I just don't get it anymore I'm almost 33.. I don't think I'm suppose to live this long.

 

[Carlotta16]

You don't do either, you sit back, breathe, and rethink life, your options, try and find something different, amuse the masses, seek the path you haven't yet explored, if then you feel no better, that's when you say fuck it, grab a bottle, and drown in your own sorrows with no damns given

I've been doing that for the last 2 years. I've tried everything people have told me to I've tried different meds, counselling, different therapy, doing different things, seeking different paths. But I'm still here and at the point I'm ready to say enough is enough. Do I keep kidding myself for the next 10 years that it will get easier, and live in misery, or do I admit defeat based on my experience. Every single day is like a huge weight and I cannot find anything that I enjoy anymore. I hate all of it

I've tried it all.. volunteering, church singing, sports… countless things that use to help me cope.. but I just don't get it anymore I'm almost 33.. I don't think I'm suppose to live this long.

I get that. I'm 35 and I don't belong here anymore. My life has no purpose apart from making me and people around me suffer. I'm not willing to do that to other people.

 

[ornitier199]

I die a long agonizing painful death. Because I defied fate and got punished for it.
I was supposed to have died a long time ago, but I didn't and so each time I fail an attempt suffering gets worse. every time i chose to keep living, suffering worsen.
There's a reason the pest from my past told me do it by revolver, because I was meant to, yet I still didn't do it then, even though the same pain I feel now as then, just not as bad.
Now after what happened recently, my heart can't take it anymore.
I have my things to do, but I just, want to stop talking about this already

I don't why I say fate, I'm an atheist but don't know any other word to describe it.

 

[wljourney]

Your story is very similar to mine. Years of hoping, trying, being disappointed, trying again, being disappointed again.

On top of that constantly changing medical staff who move on to new jobs, have kids, get promoted etc.

I'm sitting down here in this deep, dark hole, watching people walk by, look down and wave, maybe throw down some half-assed "thoughts & prayers" and leave.

In the end, it'll be up to me to decide how long I want to continue this spiel.

For now my dog (very old) keeps me around. But once he's gone, I'm checking out too.

Enough therapies. Enough meds. Enough doctors.

Just.
Enough.

 

[FuneralCry]

Living really is so painful and I understand that it is so dreadful when everything seems hopeless. I also hate being alive, to me life is just pointless suffering for the sake of it. I'm sorry that you suffer so unbearably. I wish you relief from pain in whatever you decide to do.

 

[Marktheghost]

That's how I feel too.

 

[ViperDepression22]

Feel the same way, living is painful