Venting I fuck up in College

[Danthedead]

I can't take anymore, I been in college for over 1 and a half years, I'm through my fourth semester and I fucked everything up, I been falling to show up in class, doing horrible in my exams, and whenever I want to organise to do homework, I get distracted and leave everything for the last minute (even though I keep repeating myself not to), and my university doesn't let to repeat semesters, so I'm about to get expelled. My family tried to help me, and I appreciate them for that really, but that just makes things worse for me because I'm just throwing all that time and money they invested in me away. I was doing fine at first, but even since the mandatory internships began, I got fucked up (I think it's my autism that fucked me up because of the change of routine). I just want to stop suffering, I'm definitely not suited for adulthood...

 

[rayless]

I'm definitely not suited for adulthood...

Same.
And university is the place where I got that. I wonder how could I fail in so many things at that place having all the resources I needed in my hands.
Nowadays I almost got used to being pretty much the only failure amongst my successful group of friends, but it still hurts being worthless.

 

[Danthedead]

Same.
And university is the place where I got that. I wonder how could I fail in so many things at that place having all the resources I needed in my hands.
Nowadays I almost got used to being pretty much the only failure amongst my successful group of friends, but it still hurts being worthless.

I'm considering dropping out college, so at least I can retain some dignity and avoid public shame. My family will definitely hate me for that though...

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds so stressful what you are going through. I'm sorry that you suffer so much. I also see myself as not being suited for this life, in my case I should have never existed. I know that it is awful when things keep on going wrong and get worse. I wish you the best in whatever happens.