Venting I fucking hate myself so much

[Scooters_Tragedy]

I'm a pathetic, worthless, miserable whore. I'm fat, I have scars all over me from cutting myself and it's disgusting. I whipped my thighs earlier because I felt so fucking worthless. If there's a god I want him to take me away

 

[Jadeith]

I have scars all over me from cutting myself and it's disgusting

Battle scars. Nothing disgusting about them.

If there's a god I want him to take me away

If there's a god i highly doubt it's merciful one so i wouldn't count on that wish to be fulfilled.

Now, about being worthless - i won't preach about being valuable just for existing since i was never able to apply that to myself. But, if you cannot be worth sth for yourself, you might try to be worth sth for someone else. If you want to of course. Worked for me so far. It's a tad easier to live with yourself, even with enormous amount of self-hatred when you have someone relying on you one way or another.

 

[Scooters_Tragedy]

Battle scars. Nothing disgusting about them.

They are disgusting. Some of them are keloids and I did my research on them and they're permanent.

 

[Jadeith]

They are disgusting.

I beg to differ. They are testament of your suffering. Your internal demons trying to claw their way out. Yet, you are still with us here.
I know it's not much, coming from internet nobody but i'm proud of you. Couldn't imagine the battles you went through.

Some of them are keloids and I did my research on them and they're permanent.

Permanent meaning that they won't disappear on their own - true. Still, can be removed with careful laser therapy, cryo and steroid injections.