I feel that from day to day I'm closer to suicide

[Damian2102]

I posted here on 1st August - two weeks ago. Nothing changed in my life. I had a date with short woman, I thought that she liked me, but after date I lost a contact with her so probably I wasn't a man of her dreams haha. Also I met some people and I hoped that they will become my friends, but after first meeting I lost contact with them as well. Still minimal wage job which makes me unable to save some money. Everyday I end my job, I return to empty house, empty space. That's very depressing. I feel that there are no perspectives to change something. For a few days I've been going along a rail track and waiting for a train to come, but each time it was closing, actually I wasn't able to wait for it and die. I don't know what to do. Don't want to die but also don't want to live... Two states at the same time, like Schrödinger's cat, lol...

 

[FuneralCry]

It is like being trapped, when you do not want to die and yet you do not want to live. I understand how hopeless that feeling must be. I wish you well.

 

[Sherri]

I posted here on 1st August - two weeks ago. Nothing changed in my life. I had a date with short woman, I thought that she liked me, but after date I lost a contact with her so probably I wasn't a man of her dreams haha. Also I met some people and I hoped that they will become my friends, but after first meeting I lost contact with them as well. Still minimal wage job which makes me unable to save some money. Everyday I end my job, I return to empty house, empty space. That's very depressing. I feel that there are no perspectives to change something. For a few days I've been going along a rail track and waiting for a train to come, but each time it was closing, actually I wasn't able to wait for it and die. I don't know what to do. Don't want to die but also don't want to live... Two states at the same time, like Schrödinger's cat, lol...

Sorry about the date, if it's online dating it takes ages to find the right one. Don't give up on love if you are looking for it. About the hard times you going through, hope they pass soon. Hugs