catbunny
Member
- Jun 19, 2024
- 43
I dont feel like i belong anywhere. I hate it when I realize that at the end of the day, I am nothing. Nothing matters, no one needs me, I dont feel like I'm even existing anymore. I am not matter, so why can't I just disappear?
Lately, as those thoughts becoming more and more, I have been locking myself in my room 24/7. I didn't leave my room, I feel anxious and tired when I have to. I feel like an 30s loser nerd ass dude, the type to of fatass digusting man who play games and watch hentai while jerking off, and maybe a discord mod that going around 'kitten' hunting. Ofc I dont do that, except that I play my o3ds and reading manhwa 24/7 in my room drinking coke. sounds like them asf and that make me feel disgusting as fuck that I want to kill my fucking self cause wtf am I doing? I should be outside, smiling, hanging out and nonchalantly going out alone, being independent like a cool as fuck person that everyone wants to be friends with that I am acting like. Thats my mask, the perfect mask that everyone see.
Well, no one know I am here, venting about how I hate everyone, I hate people, pathetically want to kill myself, cut myself in pieces. No one should know about it. Who am I even without that fucking mask? A fucking loser.
I don't even smart enough to study well. I am so fucking stupid loser idiot Why havent I died yet? This is so frustrating, tiring
Lately, as those thoughts becoming more and more, I have been locking myself in my room 24/7. I didn't leave my room, I feel anxious and tired when I have to. I feel like an 30s loser nerd ass dude, the type to of fatass digusting man who play games and watch hentai while jerking off, and maybe a discord mod that going around 'kitten' hunting. Ofc I dont do that, except that I play my o3ds and reading manhwa 24/7 in my room drinking coke. sounds like them asf and that make me feel disgusting as fuck that I want to kill my fucking self cause wtf am I doing? I should be outside, smiling, hanging out and nonchalantly going out alone, being independent like a cool as fuck person that everyone wants to be friends with that I am acting like. Thats my mask, the perfect mask that everyone see.
Well, no one know I am here, venting about how I hate everyone, I hate people, pathetically want to kill myself, cut myself in pieces. No one should know about it. Who am I even without that fucking mask? A fucking loser.
I don't even smart enough to study well. I am so fucking stupid loser idiot Why havent I died yet? This is so frustrating, tiring
