Venting I don't want to continue seeing the psychologist, but they won't discharge me either.

[Ere23]

I had already mentioned this issue in a previous post, but to summarize: I requested to see the school psychologist expecting to receive individual help without involving anyone else. Instead, I ended up having sessions with a psychiatrist and a neurologist in the presence of my family. The thing is, I now regret it, and tomorrow I have another session. I can't simply skip it, but I can't think of a good excuse either. If I just stop attending the sessions, my family will worry, but the truth is that I really don't want to continue anymore. Anyway, I'm just venting here. I will probably not show up tomorrow, and if they ask, I'll tell them that I won't be continuing with the sessions. I'll have to endure my family's complaints.

 

[aspenjrojas]

Could you talk to them in private not in presence of your family? Or ask in private to stop? Or maybe if there is no possible workaround, try and talk about meaningless unrelated stuff during those sessions to endure it.

 

[Ere23]

Even if it were possible for them to agree to such requests and they accepted them, I still would not want to continue with the therapy. In addition, they do not provide absolute confidentiality, which means my family could continue requesting and obtaining information about what I said in the sessions.

Regarding your suggestion to speak about unimportant or neutral topics during the psychological sessions, I have already tried that. However, I do it only because there is nothing interesting happening in my life. Everything feels so gray and empty that, when I avoid talking about how I really feel, the sessions barely last a few minutes. Even so, I have no desire to speak at all. This whole situation only reminds me of why I should never have started therapy in the first place.

I appreciate your suggestion about asking the psychologist not to share information with my family, and requesting that the psychiatrist and neurologist avoid joint sessions with them. In theory, it sounds reasonable, but in practice it does not resolve my deeper concerns. The lack of true privacy.

 

[be-a-goldfish]

The thing is, I now regret it, and tomorrow I have another session. I can't simply skip it, but I can't think of a good excuse either. If I just stop attending the sessions, my family will worry, but the truth is that I really don't want to continue anymore.

I don't know how to access the previous post but I'm interpreting a feeling of being trapped across the scedule even though you are physically free. That's all too common to me, and I hate it so much. At my job there are so many one-on-one meetings that I could just get over with at any moment of the multiple hours we are both free but I have to anxiously wait for the clock to tick down to when it is scheduled and that makes me feel worse, more burnt out, and less performant the closer the time comes. Anyway, I didn't want to make this about me, I'm just trying to show you I've been there too. About you again, If the psychiatrist and your family understand that you are under a lot of strain, That would give them reason to be more forgiving to you and give you time between each response? If they ask why you are taking so long to respond surely you could say you are formulating a good answer to the question? I think at least the neurologist would be pleased since chronic stress + anxiety together are well known to wreak havoc on many people's ability to speak coherently and that effort will show him/her that you are trying to make their job easy. You could use that time to think about what is honest for the physicians but also comfortable for you to say in front of your family.

 

[aspenjrojas]

Even if it were possible for them to agree to such requests and they accepted them, I still would not want to continue with the therapy. In addition, they do not provide absolute confidentiality, which means my family could continue requesting and obtaining information about what I said in the sessions.

Regarding your suggestion to speak about unimportant or neutral topics during the psychological sessions, I have already tried that. However, I do it only because there is nothing interesting happening in my life. Everything feels so gray and empty that, when I avoid talking about how I really feel, the sessions barely last a few minutes. Even so, I have no desire to speak at all. This whole situation only reminds me of why I should never have started therapy in the first place.

I appreciate your suggestion about asking the psychologist not to share information with my family, and requesting that the psychiatrist and neurologist avoid joint sessions with them. In theory, it sounds reasonable, but in practice it does not resolve my deeper concerns. The lack of true privacy.

Hmm tbf this does sound like a difficult situation and I'm sorry you do have to suffer through it. As of tomorrow, I would say just not skip it, because from experience, it'll only instigate them more and make the situation worse. If there is no way to ask to stop it all together, the only thing I can think to try is to just pretend like your life is good, and you have good friends and are feeling well, and hopefully over time try to convince them these meetings are unnecessary.

A while ago, when I was younger, my parents were concerned and I also hated therapy, and they switched me to a different therapist, and I just acted like everything in my life was fine. When she asked about my problems and whatever, I just faked 'normal people' problems, like "homework is so hard, and i hate this teacher ugh" or like "this friend was mean to me and i don't know how to feel about it." and i kind of painted my parents as being unreasonably concerned about me, like they just were unsupportive of me and my friend group and were just old-fashioned thinkers and just projected their worst fears onto me, and eventually my therapist told my parents that she isn't really concerned about my mental health, and so my parents took me out of it.