Venting I don’t want heaven or hell, I want nothing

[Fisherman]

I have always disliked life, a meaningless curse, it's been like this since childhood, everything's too complicated, I don't understand anything, it's always my fault, it's never enough, be smarter, learn more, study more, survive more, think harder, be perfect, do this do that, shame, be omnipotent, blah blah...
It's like I'm always walking in shattered glass or shoes with nails in them
Good ppl don't exist, everyone and everything is made to be evil, give heaven to the good people that want to continue with life, and hell to the bad ones or whatever, but I never wanted life to begin with, I just want nothing
Im just someone's sadistic frankenstein experiment
In my eyes my life is completely worthless, it means nothing to me
If I ceased to exist everything would be solved, it would be a win-win for myself and those that dislike me, just make it quick, I never wanted this hopeless nightmare of a world
Give it all away to those that want it
I want to return to nothingness

 

[callmer]

I have always disliked life, it's been like this since childhood, everything too complicated, I don't understand anything, it's always my fault, it's never enough, be smarter, learn more, study more, think harder, be perfect, do this do that, be omnipotent, blah blah
Good ppl don't exist, everyone and everything is made to be evil, give heaven to the good people that want to continue with life, and hell to the bad ones or whatever, but I never wanted life to begin with, I just want nothing
Im just someone's sadistic frankenstein experiment
In my eyes my life is completely worthless, it means nothing to me
If I ceased to exist everything would be solved, it would be a win-win for myself and those that dislike me, just make it quick, I never wanted this nightmare of a world
Give it all away to those that want it
I want to return to nothingness

It's actually almost certain that you will. Hell is not real, it's a man-made concept, designed to scare people into obedience. It doesn't exist. If people want to return to nothingness, let them. For many, it's the only way to be at peace.