I don't love anyone

[filthyrottendirty]

When people tell you they love you how do you react? I wonder why because I can't see anything in me worth loving

 

[Snake of Eden]

I thought about the same thing. I dont even know what love is anymore. I say that i love my parents but in reality i think it is pity and regret that I feel for them for having me.

 

[Jumping_realms]

Other than a select few, or the occasional drunk text, they really don't.

That is how I know I'm probably better off gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Love is something that doesn't exist to me, in any way, shape or form. Most of the time I just feel so empty, devoid of emotion.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

I only feel hate and derision. One person in my immediate proximity says they love me. I sometimes say it back.

 

[motel rooms]

I guess I was moved the last time a guy told me he loved me. I love him too in my stunted way. If only he wasn't an alcoholic & I a mentally ill sex addict

 

[9BBN]

You're asking the wrong people. I found that when I'm depressed my emotions go away. I wonder if that makes it harder for us to love ourselves?

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

I know my parents love me because they're just very good people. A few others, I don't even know why. I feel like I'm a fraud, and people just don't see the real me m, and they love me only because they think I'm something else. I don't even know if any of it makes sense……

 

[Pisceslilith]

I honestly don't know the meaning of love, I'm not even sure if I can feel it, if someone told me they loved me, I'll just think in my head "yeah okay". I honestly I feel like saying I love you is meaningless unless there is action behind it obviously. I feel like most people throw that word around way too loosely, it's odd honestly but it's not my life so who cares. I have one person that I care for somewhat and I can't remember the last time I told them I loved them, I feel like it's out of obligation when I do say it or cause I feel bad. I'm not sure if I ever felt loved. And I'm not sure if I'm ever capable of being loved just because I exist. I'm not sure I even care anymore. I'm growing numb by the years.

 

[LifeQuitter2018]

I don't have love, I only have lust.

 

[one.way.out]

Love is a weird emotion for me nowadays. I think my problem isn't actually me not receiving love, it's being bad at giving it. I do probably receive love, I just don't really feel loved. I guess I don't really show that I care about my family, I often forget to give them birthday gifts, I don't do things with them that much, but if something bad happened to them I'd be miserable. I want someone to care for, but it feels... weird? Is that a stupid excuse? to care for my family. I think I'm just attached to them cause I'm familiar with them. Hmm. I want someone to care for. On the other hand, I don't feel like anyone really knows the real me. It hurts, but unfortunately, I know people won't like the real me. So I'm stuck in a double bind.

 

[ClairyFairy]

If I love them I tell them without them having to tell me. It's embarrassing for me for people to say it. If I don't I laugh and say why would you want to go and do that and say all a manner of reasons why they shouldn't. Someone told me the other day it was funny the way everything I said about myself was really negative but because of the way I say it she'd never noticed before. I'm so critical of myself I don't believe other people when they tell me they're not and they talk bollocks when they say they see all this lovely vomit inducing stuff in me

Hmm. I want someone to care for.

Get a kitten

 

[The Lonely]

Well…. No one says this to me for about… 10 years…

Either way I don't love anyone…
I'm totally detached …

My soul has already gone

 

[existtosuffer]

The closest I've ever felt to love was when I first took MDMA.

It's impossible to stay in that state permanently because our bodies are built to survive.

I've always struggled to understand love. Nothing in this existence can last forever. I don't think true love is possible.

Our brains don't have the capability to love when we've spent thousands of years developing survival, amongst some of the harshest conditions, conquering the animal kingdom.

Love is a byproduct of our species desire to procreate our existence further.

 

[Deleted member 8975]

No one's ever told me that except my parents.

 

[stygal]

In my weird ways I do feel love occasionally but it's not a very stable thing or something that would be considered the normal romantic love more of a platonic "this person means so much to me at this point" feeling.

But I'm confused by the typical romantic love - we were just chilling on the bed and watching YouTube and an ex told me:
I love you
and I was like: W a t ? (How do you decide that just now in the most unfitting circumstance of all? Haha.)
I said nothing back.

 

[Pluto]

I rarely if ever felt loved as a child, though was certainly hated and mocked endlessly. As an adult, I have always found myself trying to earn love through being useful, helpful or knowledgeable. But people can tell that I'm overcompensating for something missing on the inside, and it often comes across as creepy. Being foreign to love is definitely a root problem for many of us here.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

It makes me feel very uncomfortable because I do not want love.

 

[Snake of Eden]

It makes me feel very uncomfortable because I do not want love.

Why?

 

[Sprite_Geist]

Why?

When somebody has feelings of affection for you, in any form or capacity, it ties you down... I do not want that. Secondly: because I have never experienced a romantic relationship at all, and it does not seem like something which would appeal to me. As for love in the context of friendship? I decided that I no longer wanted friends a while ago. I have always kept to myself - mostly, but I maintained a few close relationships at one point in time; now I want no one in my life at all.

 

[orangepotato]

I'm so numb I've forgotten what love even is.