the desire to be killed by someone who loves you

[keiangel1]

I do not want to kill myself. I want someone to do it for me. Not just some random psycho though. I want it to be someone who loves me so dearly they'll liberate me from this life even if it condemns them in turn. I've had this long running fantasy about bleeding out in someone's arms while they comfort me. Or them embracing me and telling me how much they love me before pulling the trigger and blowing my fucking brains out (not in that way you perv). I want them to cannibalize me after, so I can be with them in the most intimate way (though I have to ignore the fact that they'll shit me out later lol). And they'll load me up with a bunch of drugs before anything so that everything will be painless and euphoric and it'll just be like falling asleep.

 

[virdzina]

I think about this constantly (maybe not the cannibalism part)

 

[emptymiku]

same except for that cannibalism part.

 

[likeacatinthedark]

ohmygosh this would truly be so transcendent

 

[Jadeith]

Personally i find cannibalistic part a tad too extreme to my liking but dying in loved one's arms is a dream that will never come true. Not for me at least, since the ones that have anything similar to love for me, won't let me die. Guess their love doesn't reach far enough to set me free.

 

[scenecore fan]

I'd love for a HYPOTHETICAL girlfriend to cannibalize me, like fr

 

[lilb0wpeep]

relate to this so much!… minus the cannibalism part… but wanting to feel the relief and comfort by having my life fished from someone lovingly is probably the biggest thing I could ask for.

 

[enduringwinter]

d4vd likes this (but no yeah, im lowkey jealous bc to be loved and go out with a bang like that is unironically better than whatever tf ended up being my life) (but also do things yourself man, smh outsourcing all the difficult stuff thats why we're on here, low agency af)