Venting I don't dare to talk about it with my mom

[mentalhealthfighter]

Like, she's gonna get stressed out from it. I guess I need to call the hotline. Its so lonely

 

[rationaltake]

I know.

 

[FuneralCry]

I always see it as best not to talk to people about wanting to ctb. I would never do that. I think that sometimes it's hard for people to accept and understand as they are not in a similar situation and of course others could try to interfere in our ctb plans if they knew about it. I do wish that things were different, I wish we lived in a world where suicide is not so stigmatised and we could be open about our plans and then just exit peacefully when the time is right without all the secrecy.

 

[VKVK]

You're right and you really shouldn't, but perhaps (perhaps) (very small chance) if you opened up to her about everything and why you feel like this (if you even know), maaaaaaaaybe it could help you "fix" something? (if there's even anything to fix)

I told my mom and SO to hold myself accountable externally and try and reach """"help""""/do something about it. I'm sad to say it did NOT work but I feel like if she were just a bit different it could have. So. Uh. It really depends on the kind of parents you have and how you handle it.

I wish I was in a mental hospital but I hear from here they're brutal anyways so there's not much else to do.

Hope you're well.

 

[BandAddict]

I know what you mean. I got it in my head once that I could have a sit-down with my mom and convince her that CTB was the best option for me. I legit thought that she might agree with me or make peace with it. That did not work. I was like "oh right, this is real life..."