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I don't belong to happy people

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noname223

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Aug 18, 2020
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Today i was invited to a birthday party to one of my best friends. I have 3 really good friends. I can talk to them about everything and they know my whole story. However two old friends were invited. I was asked how my life is doing and how I feel.(We did not meet for a long time.) I hate these questions. I feel so ashamed that I am a loser and I cannot work and so on. They have A LOT of money, partners etc.
I left the party earlier. It hurt so fucking much. After it I told my mom that the party has made me depressed due to the reasons above. (She abused me since i was 5 and destroyed my life.) She told me to stop self-pitying.
Fuck her.
I guess you know now why i don't care how my parents feel when I ctb.
 
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WornOutLife

WornOutLife

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Mar 22, 2020
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Oh dear, I'm so sorry you had such a bad time at that party.
One of my ex friends invited me to a party too because he really wanted to be close to me again. However, I knew the rest of the guys didn't want that so, I'm not going to any kind of events like that.

I have more than enough with this goddamn daily life!
 
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SweetDreams500

SweetDreams500

Narcissistic gay NEETcel
Apr 4, 2021
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Yeah, being reminded of how little I have achieved also makes me depressed.
 
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nopointofliving

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Apr 19, 2021
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I an relate to this

I hate when someone asks me " what's your job/ what do you do for living " . Then they say they have this and that. once someone asked me : " why aren't you married yet? how many kids do you want " I felt so awful, people are so proud of their stupid achievements ( a slave job, having a partner and kids) and they want to show others that they are superior and better than you. Why? Because life gave them a partner, kids and a fucking job. these people aren't happy , they are mean and unkind. I realized something when you fail to stand for others, you fail to stand for yourself. they failed you but in fact they failed themselves.
 
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intr0verse

Arcanist
Jan 29, 2021
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https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/i-dont-belong-to-happy-people.65737/
Me neither; and i'm happy i don't. People tend to do A LOT of stupid things when they're happy.
 
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