Wolf Girl
Your friendly neighborhood suicidal wolf girl
- Jun 12, 2024
- 313
I am getting worse everyday.
The only relief I can get is from daydreaming about the person I love. However, this person has left. I am going to reach out to him next week to see if there's a chance of making it right, but I am not particularly hopeful. But I still keep daydreaming about him comforting me. The daydreams are the only time during the day that I can calm down, so I use them to help me sleep at night.
I'm afraid of how it's going to feel when he rejects me next week. I am not prepared for a proper ctb and it's not a good idea for me to jump the gun and end up alive and hospitalized again. But this would be the perfect trigger to help me overcome SI on a harder method like jumping from a bridge. But also, I don't feel fully ready while I'm thinking of it now.
I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do.
The only relief I can get is from daydreaming about the person I love. However, this person has left. I am going to reach out to him next week to see if there's a chance of making it right, but I am not particularly hopeful. But I still keep daydreaming about him comforting me. The daydreams are the only time during the day that I can calm down, so I use them to help me sleep at night.
I'm afraid of how it's going to feel when he rejects me next week. I am not prepared for a proper ctb and it's not a good idea for me to jump the gun and end up alive and hospitalized again. But this would be the perfect trigger to help me overcome SI on a harder method like jumping from a bridge. But also, I don't feel fully ready while I'm thinking of it now.
I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do.
