Venting I Can’t take it anymore

[lost.ghost]

I've dealt with chronic suicidal thoughts since I was 12, and staying indoors has made me so unmotivated to keep living. On top of that I am so tired of being mentally ill and this is something I will have to deal with for the rest of my life. I don't want to be in pain anymore. I am considering killing myself very soon, but I have an amazing boyfriend who I am scared to leave. I want to kill myself so bad and not be hurting anymore but I'm terrified for his own mind after I do so. Just needed to vent

 

[HorribleFeelings1]

Hey! Hope you're doing well (: what makes you suicidal? I'm here if ya want to DM

 

[DoNotLet2]

Hey! Hope you're doing well (: what makes you suicidal? I'm here if ya want to DM

So am I.

 

[muffin222]

I'm so sorry you're hurting so badly. I completely understand the lifelong struggle of mental illness and how the perpetual nature of it can make you feel hopeless. I sincerely wish you peace with whatever you decide to do