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struggles_inc

struggles_inc

life is a highway and i wanna wreck my car
Jun 24, 2023
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I have never been doing better, my studies are almost perfect, my business is slowly thriving, my bf is pleased… but…

Something is wrong. I am slipping away.

I see something I can improve. Things are not ideal. I can do better. If I don't do everything perfectly, I fail.
I need 100%.
I am going insane bit by bit.

I want to do so many things. I know I am working myself into early grave. I feel like I'm ok with sacrificing myself if what I do is brilliant, if it's perfect.

I blame myself and hate myself so much for not being ideal in every way. I feel like I'm lazy and irresponsible.

It keeps bottling up and no one says a word. I feel like it's because everyone agrees or wants me to die anyway.
 
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