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cemeteryismyhome

cemeteryismyhome

Warlock
Mar 15, 2025
707
There's nothing I want to do, it's all just drudgery. It might not be fair for me to say that, because I'm older and have been through some of the things that younger people might wish they could experience, and I remember what that feels like and I respect those feelings. But it just fades away into the past and doesn't matter to me.
 
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GuppyBoyo

GuppyBoyo

Member
Mar 6, 2025
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i dont really want to do things
just want to not exist
 
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LetMeOut67

LetMeOut67

Experienced
May 7, 2025
209
There were a few places I wanted to visit but what's the point. Wherever I go I can't get away from myself.
I never mastered guitar in a way that I wanted but I think that's down to concentration issues to do with severe anxiety and severe depression.
Missed out on so much but just have to accept that it was inevitable and that life really is this brutal and unfair and that there are no Hollywood endings.
 
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NoHorizon

Experienced
Nov 22, 2022
287
For me it's running. I love to run and everything that comes with it (the feeling of free movement in nature and pushing myself, the achievements, the goals and numbers and routine, the shoes), but it's such a minor reason to stay alive that it's embarrassing. I'm sad I won't be able to achieve the running goals I'm working really hard towards, but I can't manage 23 hours of the day being miserable for one hour of the day being happy.

I totally get living inside a fictional world too - I enjoy gaming and often get absorbed in books. Sometimes when I'm doing those I forget I even exist outside of the game/book and not being able to live in those places once I'm dead is a bit sad too.

There's a reasonable chance I'll (maybe impulsively) kill myself in the next few weeks so that sadness has amplified. Ultimately I cope by reminding myself that I once I no longer exist I won't be able to feel the regret or the sadness. Everything will just end.
 

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