Resource How to hang yourself

[AreWeWinning]

I just changed two things in my setup: tightening the knot and buckle as much as I can while lowering myself and walking forward with no support from the arms.

By fail here, I mean passing out and waking up. Since there'll be no resting grip on my carotids from a self-tightening knot, I might wake up once my body stands up or something, but it might be too late for the body at that point.

The 'standard' and recommended way is to use a self-tightening noose, for obvious reasons. However, plenty of people succeed with using a fixed loop. If it's tied tight, it'll likely work. It's just not ideal. I think it's best to plan well and avoid risks as much as possible.

There are comments of people saying they stand up involuntarily. I'm slightly skeptical, but at the same time, I also think that it's possible. I don't know... In theory, as long as you're not sitting down, it's a good position. I think if you can get yourself to pass out, standing up after that is a relatively low risk. Anyway, extending the legs forward eliminates this issue.

After all, people in Japan could stab themselves in the stomach to die for honor, and I'm whining about a method that involves unconsciousness.

Suicide is hard. Personally, the only way I can imagine doing it is by shutting all thoughts out completely. That's my plan. As soon as I start to think, emotions and doubts start to come up. I don't think it's possible to be at peace with it.

I think seppuku in Japan was different, because it was a kind of honour to do that. There is a strong social element involved. It's like dying in a battle, or assisted euthanasia. The common element is that the person is not alone during the process, and it's an accepted act. What makes suicide especially hard is that we have to do it alone, in secret, in isolation.

 

[peewee]

gonna attempt tomorrow. taking a bunch of codeine before to help nerves and pain...i really hope i can go through with it

 

[CaptainSunshine!]

Apologies for not being dead.


I must've lucked out on the fixed knot attempt with some sort of bodily coincidence. I was drinking two cups of coffee daily and perhaps at the moment of the attempt I had some sort of blood pressure or blood glucose issue. This is how I'll explain the "serious" feeling in my previous post.

Man, sometimes I say embarrassing shit. I did not discover the fucking wheel lol. But I'll have to live with my words for the rest of my life, for I cannot edit and it is too insignificant to report to mods.


Here's what I've learned:
- I started drinking herbal tea instead of coffee and attempted my fixed knots. I felt very safe and not really uncomfortable. I tried different positions. Other heights were less effective. If the buckle wasn't tightened up to my neck, it wouldn't grip me that well.
- I took two days to drink coffee and I didn't obtain the serious feeling anymore. I felt safe also. Perhaps I need to drink coffee for a longer time, but it's likely a bad method if I have to rely on high blood pressure or something like that.
- I tried out the girth hitch. I judge it too thick and ineffective.
There are two straps on my neck and they don't bend, so they stay flat. If the knot is at the back, it doesn't close at my posterior neck properly. If the knot is at the front, it closes well, but I think this may be a bad pose for death. The buckle also pinches my skin.

I don't know what this knot is called, but I'm gonna call it the Captain Sunshine Special as a placeholder. I used it as an anchor. It holds decently. I don't know how I could google knots. Pictures are probably not the way, and descriptions may be too vague. So maybe an expert will enlighten me.
I used it for the girth hitch attempt.

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I consider the pictures self-explanatory.

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The girth hitch posterior choke. I call it posterior, because it tightens around the back, but this may be a wrong interpretation. At the front it tenses well, but as I've said, the buckle pinches my skin. I could feel a pulse, however.


I'm gonna be attempting an arbor knot partial hanging. I believe this to be my definite method, as the noose will be just a singular layer of rope against my neck, self-tightening, and it will contort to my flesh, hitting the arteries better.
For the anchor, I'll probably use the Captain Sunshine Special, but I haven't tried tying that yet. I think I tried a bowline, but could only do it with the tail end with the buckle, and the end result is that it's too long.

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There is no anchor knot here; just an arbor knot.

I'll presumably be putting my legs in front of me, like in the third pose of the original post of this megathread, since I still believe in the impossibility of sophisticated movements for the body in an unconscious state. I always wondered why the body just can't do a pullup to escape death, or climb the rope like Chuck Norris. This answer is probably why.
I don't know what height I'll try to get the noose at, but maybe something below sternum height. I'll experiment.

I'll be making a message to the future, in which I'll detail my method. I don't know how explicit I'll be, however even just saying what knots and such will be very useful. I'll probably time it to upload in one month, three weeks, or two weeks. I don't know yet.
The cops will likely get into my browser history even after clearing cookies and such. I don't know how this account's information is gonna look after that happens, but it might be fine.

I'll drink herbal tea and water only. I imagine the coffee, if it works, will be a double-edged sword. You might pass out quicker, if true, but you'll also be more fearful. Death is already scary, therefore I wanna increase my chances by being more or less calm.

I'll post things here in the megathread if I deem them useful, but I might just stay radio silent until my absence due to death posts the message. I'll set up a google calendar notification or something so I don't forget. I don't wanna fool nobody.
I'll probably say something silly or embarrassing in the future post, because why so serious?

There are possibilities other than death, of course. A mental hospital, mental disability, just forgetting, loss of electronics.
If I get to live after my message posts and will be able to see it, I'll report it to mods for deletion, since posts after 6 hours cannot be edited or deleted.
There's also the possibility of an accidental death. How funny would that be lol.


I believe in myself. I can do it and such. Just do it. Never give up. The auto-erotic asphyxiation fans motivate me, for they can die on accident. Surely, death by hanging must be very simple and easy!

 

[AreWeWinning]

I don't know what this knot is called, but I'm gonna call it the Captain Sunshine Special as a placeholder. I used it as an anchor. It holds decently

That looks like a Figure 8 Hitch. Not a popular knot. It isn't a very secure one, but it's not terrible either. It could work. I would definitely add a stopper knot at the free end if I were to use this one.

You could also consider using a Round Turn and Two Half Hitches, or an Anchor Hitch. You can add a stopper knot after these too. If you still prefer the Captain Sunshine Special a.k.a. Figure 8 Hitch, you could also look at the Buntline Hitch, which is very similar but more secure. Again, you can add a stopper knot to this one too. Add a stopper knot to whatever knot you use! It's simple, it makes knots more secure, and has no drawbacks.

At the front it tenses well, but as I've said, the buckle pinches my skin.

Why was the buckle there? You can put the Girth Hitch anywhere along the strap, and the buckle doesn't need to be in the way. But if it doesn't work because of the strap's thickness, this doesn't matter at this point, I guess.

arbor knot

Looking at your picture, I'd tie the stopper knot closer to the main knot. If you tie it close, that should eliminate any possible slippage. Unlikely to be an issue if you use a strap, but still.

I'll presumably be putting my legs in front of me

I don't know what height I'll try to get the noose at, but maybe something below sternum height. I'll experiment.

Below sternum height sounds about right to me.

For illustration (click to zoom):

 

[CaptainSunshine!]

Add a stopper knot to whatever knot you use! It's simple, it makes knots more secure, and has no drawbacks.

Are overhand knots good stoppers? I'm gonna be using the arbor knot and buntline hitch.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Found a proper rope. I think simply running it over a door and forcing it shut is enough for partial. Now it's just me & eternity (there is no way in hell I have the guts).