How painful is sn?

[(UN)COMMON SENSE]

Wrong

Oh okay why am I wrong. Care to explain?

 

[fitoo5999]

Oh yeah, i long to feel it again

You didn't take 25g tho? Maybe it is for that.

 

[0dysseus]

SN worries me a lot. It does not see like a plesant way to go out. I am wondering what, if possible, it would take to "sedate" yourself through most of it. Of courde, the people saying there are better methods say gunshot is the better method which I absolutely do not want to do.

I'm totally in the same mental place with SN. Although I wish I had a firearm accessible, it's like ending the suffering in a brief moment.

 

[komakun]

Oh yeah, i long to feel it again

Would you say the vomiting/nausea is worse than a bad bout of alcohol poisoning or violently puking after drinking too much? Or like puking after a nonlethal pill OD …. trying to compare to the worst experiences I've had w vomiting to prepare myself lol

 

[0dysseus]

wait wai

Heres someone thats actually taken it and wouldve died, it felt amazing, IF you can get past the initial nausea, i downed a tea-spoonful of it not drinking water until after i poured the powder down my throat. I took nothing else with the SN. The initial anxiety made me nauseous for the first few minutes, + my throat burned at first since i didnt mix it in water when i took it, but if you can somehow find a way to not focus on that then youll get over it quickly and slowly lose all your senses and touch with reality. Thats the part that feels amazing and that i wish i could emulate without the messiness of the first few minutes (swallowing the powder, coughing, trying to tolerate my throat burning at first and the bitter taste, drinking like 2 bottles of water to mask it, waiting for the nausea to go away)

But it really was only those first rough few minutes and after that if you just lay there and let yourself die it feels amazing

Wait wait hold your horses, are a survivor of SN?

 

[0dysseus]

Oh yeah, i long to feel it again

Would you compare it to when you fade into black under anesthesia when undergoing surgery.

 

[Playingwiththedead]

wait wai

Wait wait hold your horses, are a survivor of SN?

yes only because i called 911 on myself lol. I had full on cyanosis, face blue, lips blue, nails blue, i saw myself in the mirror as the paramedics wheeled me out of my house, i wouldve died for sure

Would you say the vomiting/nausea is worse than a bad bout of alcohol poisoning or violently puking after drinking too much? Or like puking after a nonlethal pill OD …. trying to compare to the worst experiences I've had w vomiting to prepare myself lol

Not as bad, i never even threw up, it was really only an anxious nausea. I suspect thats because most of the SN was absorbed through my throat since i didnt mix it in water before taking it, if i had drank a mixture and had it all go down to my stomach im sure i wouldve gotten really nauseous

Would you compare it to when you fade into black under anesthesia when undergoing surgery.

No, better, i felt heaven, i felt my husband, it was an incredibly powerful loving feeling. It didnt feel like going to sleep, being sleepy, being put to sleep, any of that. I didnt really feel like i was "dying" if you look at dying as losing all sense of life. I felt like i was losing my senses keeping me connected to earth and my consciousness was being transferred somewhere else.

 

[0dysseus]

yes only because i called 911 on myself lol. I had full on cyanosis, face blue, lips blue, nails blue, i saw myself in the mirror as the paramedics wheeled me out of my house, i wouldve died for sure

Not as bad, i never even threw up, it was really only an anxious nausea. I suspect thats because most of the SN was absorbed through my throat since i didnt mix it in water before taking it, if i had drank a mixture and had it all go down to my stomach im sure i wouldve gotten really nauseous

No, better, i felt heaven, i felt my husband, it was an incredibly powerful loving feeling. It didnt feel like going to sleep, being sleepy, being put to sleep, any of that. I didnt really feel like i was "dying" if you look at dying as losing all sense of life. I felt like i was losing my senses keeping me connected to earth and my consciousness was being transferred somewhere else.

So I guess you're going to try again.

Wait also, did you take benzos? Because it might have been the benzos.

 

[Playingwiththedead]

So I guess you're going to try again.

Wait also, did you take benzos? Because it might have been the benzos.

Nah i took just the SN, nothing else. I had taken benzos years back and they felt nothing like what i felt. And sadly i cant try again because the paramedics threw out my SN and every other method is too hard and requires too much planning. IF PSH was as easy as my research on what Chris Cornell did made it sound i would go that way, but then i come on here and all these people start debating me over the size length thickness material of whatever i use as a noose and im just like fuck off i dont even want to do it anymore. But i do want to die still, and Chris told me very soon last night, so im hoping i might not even have to kill myself, idk.