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Sadbanana

God doesn't care
Aug 20, 2024
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I found out that in my country sn is pretty accessible. I was thinking about roping, but that would require too much planning, given I can't do it at home.

I was thinking about ordering it. But I'm a bit scared that it's going to be some unimaginable agony. I could take some antiemetics, weed or benzos if I get my hands on it. I'm not going to raw dog it. But I'm still unsure. It's not like I mind a little bit of pain, it would deffinitely be worth it.
 
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discernment

Member
Aug 11, 2026
63
Honestly, I don't think it will be pleasant (chest pain, severe headaches, vomiting etc...) but I could cope with that personally given that its a pretty effective and reliable method. Unfortunately its virtually impossible to source in my country 🙃
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
709

Check this article . It's an interesting read
I found out that in my country sn is pretty accessible. I was thinking about roping, but that would require too much planning, given I can't do it at home.

I was thinking about ordering it. But I'm a bit scared that it's going to be some unimaginable agony. I could take some antiemetics, weed or benzos if I get my hands on it. I'm not going to raw dog it. But I'm still unsure. It's not like I mind a little bit of pain, it would deffinitely be worth it.
Which country are u from?
 
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fitoo5999

Experienced
Jul 23, 2026
218

Check this article . It's an interesting read

Which country are u from?
When I read that I want to die straight. I am too weak for the fucked up word we are living in.
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
709
When I read that I want to die straight. I am too weak for the fucked up word we are living in.
So true. After reading this article, now I'm trying to look for it. So that the bus arrives soon
 
ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
709
Wow..
If it's available in abundance,and if you wanna ctb

I think don't waste time

In India it was abundantly available but now it is not available that easily.
Now i resent after going through article.
I'm like if SN is such an effective stuff...why did i not ctb while it was still available abundantly in my country.
Good luck my dear brother❤️ wish you all the peace you seek
 
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certified_idiot

Future Lost Media
Dec 5, 2023
145
From what I've heard, it'll be unpleasant, but much of that can be avoided if you have access to certain medications. A prescription antiemetic is basically required, and that will help with nausea and vomiting, but there are other optional medications you take to make it feel better. You mention potentially having access to benzos, which I think is than weed for this, but use whatever is easiest for you. I've heard that one of the most uncomfortable aspects of SN is tachycardia (racing heartbeat). It's not painful, but it'll be sustained for hours on end, and I'd imagine you'd want some peace before you die. Benzos can help with that, but if you want something dedicated to reducing tachycardia, see if you can get beta-blockers.

When it comes to maximizing general comfort, try to get everything in order beforehand. Don't try to do anything while you're dying. You'll have a few hours of consciousness while you're dying, and you don't want any additional stress. Set up a comfortable area where you'll be okay with not moving for a few hours. Bring a low-effort distraction, like music or something. It's easier to get through pain when you don't have to focus on it as much. Remember that it's just a few hours. After that, it'll all be over. It's also possible to reverse SN poisoning if you go to the hospital, so you might want to keep you're phone on you just in case you decide you don't want to go through with it.
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
709
From what I've heard, it'll be unpleasant, but much of that can be avoided if you have access to certain medications. A prescription antiemetic is basically required, and that will help with nausea and vomiting, but there are other optional medications you take to make it feel better. You mention potentially having access to benzos, which I think is than weed for this, but use whatever is easiest for you. I've heard that one of the most uncomfortable aspects of SN is tachycardia (racing heartbeat). It's not painful, but it'll be sustained for hours on end, and I'd imagine you'd want some peace before you die. Benzos can help with that, but if you want something dedicated to reducing tachycardia, see if you can get beta-blockers.

When it comes to maximizing general comfort, try to get everything in order beforehand. Don't try to do anything while you're dying. You'll have a few hours of consciousness while you're dying, and you don't want any additional stress. Set up a comfortable area where you'll be okay with not moving for a few hours. Bring a low-effort distraction, like music or something. It's easier to get through pain when you don't have to focus on it as much. Remember that it's just a few hours. After that, it'll all be over. It's also possible to reverse SN poisoning if you go to the hospital, so you might want to keep you're phone on you just in case you decide you don't want to go through with it.
Hey dear read through that article i have pasted above in one of the replies. That guy didn't use any anti emetics or benzo and used very small quantity to ctb.. what is your take on that
 
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fitoo5999

Experienced
Jul 23, 2026
218
Does SN is worst than a cancer? Getting old? Being in the street? I don't think so. It is hard to make? I believe.

I don't want to do that and I hope one that I could forgive myself for what I am about to do.

So much pain in the world, so much.
 
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certified_idiot

Future Lost Media
Dec 5, 2023
145
Hey dear read through that article i have pasted above in one of the replies. That guy didn't use any anti emetics or benzo and used very small quantity to ctb.. what is your take on that
I read the article, and it sounds like a horrible way to go. If you have absolutely no other option, it can work, but it's not ideal. You're not killing someone else, nor are you in jail. You are allowed to be comfortable before you die.
 
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ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
709
I read the article, and it sounds like a horrible way to go. If you have absolutely no other option, it can work, but it's not ideal. You're not killing someone else, nor are you in jail. You are allowed to be comfortable before you die.
No no, I'm wondering about the intricate details

This guy offered water mixed with SN to his victims, they didn't suspect it and without any anti emetics and benzo they succumbed to death

Secondly when he himself got caught and wanted to ctb , he used a very small quantity to ctb to escape the trial and punishment, this suggests that without benzos and anti emetics also, we can ctb.. Though we don't know his protocol
 
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fitoo5999

Experienced
Jul 23, 2026
218
I read the article, and it sounds like a horrible way to go. If you have absolutely no other option, it can work, but it's not ideal. You're not killing someone else, nor are you in jail. You are allowed to be comfortable before you die.
Well tell me a comfortable way to die? There is none I believe.
 
certified_idiot

certified_idiot

Future Lost Media
Dec 5, 2023
145
No no, I'm wondering about the intricate details

This guy offered water mixed with SN to his victims, they didn't suspect it and without any anti emetics and benzo they succumbed to death

Secondly when he himself got caught and wanted to ctb , he used a very small quantity to ctb to escape the trial and punishment, this suggests that without benzos and anti emetics also, we can ctb.. Though we don't know his protocol
I'm saying you can do it, but it's probably not a good idea. If you don't have access to anything to help, it's going to be quite painful and more risky. You can decide for yourself if you want the extra assurance and sedation from antiemetics and benzos.
Well tell me a comfortable way to died? There is none I believe.
I'm talking relatively. Like I said, it's possible to make things more comfortable. You don't have to go through the effort of that if you're fine with intense suffering for a few hours, but it'd probably be easier to go through with it if it wasn't excessively painful.
 
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Ultimatefighter

Earth is hell
Jun 6, 2026
187
Pph says 7/10, ao it is pretty peacefull, of course you are going to get stomach pain, nausea, headache ect but it will last for 10-20 minutes, in the meanwhile you will become more drowsy and will experience less of it until you will become unconsious. It can look on the outside more painfull then the actual experience in my believe after reading all of the failed attempts. Suicide will never be a pleasent experience
 
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fitoo5999

Experienced
Jul 23, 2026
218
Pph says 7/10, ao it is pretty peacefull, of course you are going to get stomach pain, nausea, headache ect but it will last for 10-20 minutes, in the meanwhile you will become more drowsy and will experience less of it until you will become unconsious. It can look on the outside more painfull then the actual experience in my believe after reading all of the failed attempts. Suicide will never be a pleasent experience
6/10 the 7 has never been updated.
 
ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
709
I'm saying you can do it, but it's probably not a good idea. If you don't have access to anything to help, it's going to be quite painful and more risky. You can decide for yourself if you want the extra assurance and sedation from antiemetics and benzos.

I'm talking relatively. Like I said, it's possible to make things more comfortable. You don't have to go through the effort of that if you're fine with intense suffering for a few hours, but it'd probably be easier to go through with it if it wasn't excessively painful.
Yeah, actually what i wish to convey is, this guy who committed such a heinous crime and killed 11+ people so smoothly with SN. It's pretty obv that he didn't use any anti emetics or benzo to kill anyone. And these ppl died without having any doubts over what he did. It makes me question, how tf did that happen without benzos and anti emetics. If that's possible, I want SN right nowwwwwwww.......
 
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