You won't, sadly. As much as I get your desire to ctb, and understand your life must be really terrible to want to use such a method, it won't work. It's so annoying that pro-lifers force us to consider methods like this, simply because of their irrational attachment to their views. Unfortunately, I don't have any better suggestions because there really is no peaceful way to leave this nightmare unless you have N.
but people do die of anemia right? So it must be possible right?
Slicing my wrists open or dying of blood loss is the only way to ctb for me.
Tried hanging but the ceiling fan couldn't take my weight as it was making cracking sounds and there's no such hook or bar that i can use. I can't jump off a high building because the building I live in is a 3 floor building. I don't think it will work jumping from such a short height. Also I'm actually damn scared of that method.
Inert gas, nitrogen or some other kind of fancy poison is not accessible for me. Firstly, because they cost a fortune, secondly because I live with my family, I don't want to cause them harm and thirdly if I get caught ordering them online or buying them in person, they're gonna send me to the asylum.
running into a car or big vehicle doesn't have 100% success rate so I don't want to do that.
I can try drowning but I only lake/pond around here is extremely dirty and it is under constant view of other people so they're gonna find me and think of me as a psycho.
So scarring and slicing my skin is the only way for me. Please help me with this method. Or tell me some other method I can opt for