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How emotional do you feel day-to-day?

  • Very. Most of the time.

    Votes: 4 20.0%
  • Somewhat. Highs and lows.

    Votes: 4 20.0%
  • Average.

    Votes: 1 5.0%
  • Low. Not very emotional.

    Votes: 7 35.0%
  • Totally numb. Rarely cry or show emotions.

    Votes: 4 20.0%

  • Total voters
    20
hfdepression30

hfdepression30

Experienced
Mar 30, 2021
236
I know most people will probably say "Very. Most of the time.", but I wonder if there are many or any people who feel the same way I do. I have a total numbness and emotional detachment from myself; I never cry and rarely feel strong or heightened emotions regarding myself, my life or my circumstances. The only times I do feel emotions like sadness, happiness, anger etc is when I experience it on behalf of other people. I have a total empathy for others but not for myself.

I feel like my lack of emotion regarding myself is one of the reasons I've struggled to kill myself. I don't have any overwhelming sadness or anger to focus on and push me through in order to succeed. I attempt while feeling totally numb and when SI kicks in that's the only thing I feel.
 
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JustAMatterOfTime

JustAMatterOfTime

Fragile
Mar 21, 2021
905
I never cry either only when my pet died and that was 5 years ago. Only emotions I get are sometimes anger and that's it.
 
BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Man-child, loser, autistic, etc.
Jan 26, 2021
5,845
Eh, I have periods where I am emotional and periods when I'm less emotional. Right now I am back to seeing the emotional pain as just pain, experiencing it in the present moment and watching it eventually cease. I stole this technique from Buddhism and it works for me at this point. This makes it so that I "catch" the pain early, before it becomes so big as to trigger sadness or anger.

So low atm, but knowing myself it'll come back soon enough.
 
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WornOutLife

WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,183
I chose very.
My UPS and DOWNS are ridiculous!
I wanted to ctb last Sunday and now I'm quite happy lol.
Nonsense!
 
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Trisolaris

Trisolaris

Arcanist
Dec 11, 2018
447
I feel completely numb to everything.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,680
It has been a long time since I felt any sort of emotion. I feel like I live through an fog, I see the world around me but I cannot connect to any of it. In a way I feel like I've already died.
 
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BandAddict

BandAddict

Specialist
Apr 3, 2019
338
I would go with somewhat, but I don't really feel "highs". I do feel low-level emotions sometimes, but I can become very emotional fairly quickly.
 
Sprite_Geist

Sprite_Geist

NULL
May 27, 2020
1,699
Overall calm most of the time, and the majority of stressful situations do not bother me. Every now and again, though, an event happens that triggers me in a specific way. The logical side to my personality dissolves; I become submerged in negative emotions, and my body is showered in uncomfortable sensations. It goes from the centre or one side to another very quick.
 
Aeathelina

Aeathelina

Little Homeless Girl
Feb 5, 2020
307
I spend most days going in and out of really feeling anything. Been a long time since I have truly felt some zeal of emotion other than high levels of stress. Just floating through out the day and tired of existing
 
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Fragile

Fragile

Broken
Jul 7, 2019
1,496
It's a daily roller coaster, really sucks since I can't have any consistent thought because of the way I feel.
 
Carrotcake

Carrotcake

Experienced
Nov 27, 2019
265
It's a bit weird, I am emotional, but only depression related emotional. I can cry about feeling hopeless and desperate. But I can't cry about my grandma being ill. So I feel kinda guilty about that. But I guess it's like I only have space for my own issues, and no emotional room for others (again, selfish asshole).
 
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