How do you deal with knowing you've wasted a LOT of time?

[Black_Knight]

My 20s basically evaporated from me feeling bad about everything. No job, no hobbies, no skills gained. Nothing. It's such a waste. I always wanted to write a novel, I should've at least written something (even if it was bad, who cares). I feel like I should devote time to something creative whenever I'm free now. I'm kicking myself for having no discipline!!

 

[konkurs]

I don't. stressing over it will only waste more time, So I try not to think about how much time i've wasted and just use that energy to work towards achieving my goals

 

[ScaredCutter]

What i've done and still doing is just focusing on what id wanna do, even if im lacking in so many areas because of how much things ive missed (honestly, i dont know why i wanted more free time compared to experiences), i try to learn something new as well even if its nothing interesting or something small. I just try to feel like im making up for what ive lost by doing things that seem important and helpful for me.

I still have the habit of dropping things for more free time but, i still try to make an effort by doing something rather than nothing or playing games all day. I dont do much, the last thing i learnt and gained skill from was nonograms and some algebra. i got into algebra because of my boyfriend and i was just looking for a strategy kind of game instead of minesweeper.

what ive done isnt enough anyways but, doing something (not including playing games) instead of nothing makes me forget about how much time ive wasted.

 

[58Alice85]

I feel like my entire life was wasted reacting to other people's nonsense.

 

[ummwhaaat]

I tried to CTB around 4-5 years ago, since then I've kind of lost my sense of purpose, and now only live for my family. I got diagnosed with autism 3 months ago (because i was using alcohol to prevent anxiety, and it was starting to become A LOT, and unsustainable, so i needed medication and got referred to a psychiatrist, anyways..) and they gave me some "psychoeducation" material, and one page 'struck a nerve' so to say that many with autism have an extra need for "meaningfulness" and "interest", and since my attempt I lost basically any of that I had left which is why I guess I've just started to slowly wither away mentally. I get really stressed out about wasting time when I'm working since I'm not interested in my work, so I procrastinate with games which helps a bit, but then retrospectively I feel bad about that.. It's a big bad loop. Unfortunately for me I decided I'm not going to CTB while my parents are alive so I've got some 20-30 years left to walk this earth but I cannot figure out what to do with it.

 

[getoutgirl]

I go waste some more time so that way the past time wasted seems lesser in comparisson.

but no yeah the feeling and reality suck :(
go write a novel!! make it shitty, make it not shitty, just make it if u can :)
find some time for it here and there. time productively spent often makes up for a lot more time that felt wasted. achievement feels pretty good. so hey good luck with that I encourage u!

 

[fedup1982]

I couldn't care less about wasting time. It's actually my goal. I just want to get through life as quickly as possible, as painlessly as possible.

 

[Antyquel]

Stress about it while allocating your time to something that isn't a complete waste