gh0ulxx8
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- Apr 17, 2024
- 2
i don't know what to do the depression is so overwhelming sometimes. it just feels like he has lost feeling for me and it has felt that way for some time now. but we live together and i sacrificed so much to get us here and it's like now that we live together and he has me permanently it's like he doesn't want me anymore. not at all. his depression is so so bad and it was bad our entire relationship but it used to be that i was worried he would ctb if i DIDNT come live with him, he always said over the phone he needed me so bad because his depression was crippling him. but now i feel so neglected and im not even worried about him hurting himself anymore im just worried about me hurting myself. i feel like used trash and i still care about him so much but there's no effort coming from him. i feel like the hated girlfriend. i should've taken my chance to leave when he wasn't 100% in the first place but I thought it would all work out and now ive made huge sacrifices im scared i have nowhere else to turn and I've ruined my prospects of having a good start at life on my own. i have no idea how to cope with this im so scared of life and the world and i can't even apply to get a primary care doctor by myself im going to rot myself to death with nobody to help me and if my boyfriend leaves me im even worse off than i was before.
