Help how did you accept that you failed in life?

[curiousbeing]

i mean, how did you make peace with it? That you are failed and going to leave some people you care about behind?

 

[Aren]

i mean, how did you make peace with it? That you are failed and going to leave some people you care about behind?

I say to myself that i tried all i could, as long as i could, with all the luck i could have in this life but it is not enought. I think i have not the obligation to handle such pain and i don't deserve it as human who just wanted to be happy in life. If life and choices made me go the wrong way i can't do anything more. For my situation for exemple i fought during 10 years to reach a life, and 4 month later someone destroyed this life. I failed my life and i accept it because i tried everything as long as i could. After that it's up to you to choose if you want restart another life or not but it's another and deep question.

 

[dragonofenvy]

i mean, how did you make peace with it? That you are failed and going to leave some people you care about behind?

I tell myself that I put in my best effort, and did everything that others have, and what others have told me. Some people are able to capitalize on the opportunities they were granted. I was granted many opportunities, and pursued them, but sometimes the trees you plant will not bear fruit. That's life, unfortunately. Sometimes you try and try but nothing works, while others make it look easy. Life simply isn't made for everyone and you shouldn't have to spend your existence in what is, for you, a prison just because everyone else thinks it's a playground.

 

[Aren]

I tell myself that I put in my best effort, and did everything that others have, and what others have told me. Some people are able to capitalize on the opportunities they were granted. I was granted many opportunities, and pursued them, but sometimes the trees you plant will not bear fruit. That's life, unfortunately. Sometimes you try and try but nothing works, while others make it look easy. Life simply isn't made for everyone and you shouldn't have to spend your existence in what is, for you, a prison just because everyone else thinks it's a playground.

It's so true.

 

[Forveleth]

I have not "failed" in life. I simply am no longer interested in continued existence.

 

[peacebenow]

I didn't fail at life. I have more courage and strength in me than should be humanly possible.

 

[The Eternal One]

The process was painful, due to my perfectionism in general - I wanted to do everything and to do it perfect.
I think acceptance came along with deep exhaustion accumulated over every single try at life. At the very last attempt I recognized things won't be good, no matter what I do. The slow decline of my body and cognitive abilities has already begun due to older years. Each year will only speed up the process, like a boulder rolling down a hill.
I guess failing one last time showed me I was doomed from the very start. Tiredness became the ultimate acceptance tool, no coping skills needed. It just clicked in my head all of a sudden, reality laid bare before me - I accepted myself as an objective failure on all fronts possible, and it made me relax, accept, move on.

In ultimate play of life there can be only a few main heroes, a huge load of extras and few who gets to play an inanimate corpse others step over on their adventures. I was always meant to be the latter.

 

[Aren]

I also think a lot about Icarus from Greek mythology, who burned his wings and fell after flying too close to the sun. For me, my sun was my wife and a happy life. I tried to fly as high as I could to reach that, but life clipped my wings a little more each time. Now, I am forced to admit that I no longer have enough wings left to reach any other sun. Accepting the fall brings me a sense of relief as if I am finally allowed to let go. For this, i don't consider it like a fail but a world who don't want to accept me, and there is not justice for a lot of us.

 

[starboy2k]

I didnt fail life.
I failed the everlasting rigged game of society's creation.
A game that was invented way too long before I was even thought of…….

The moment I take someone's autonomy away, violate someone's humanity, or take someone's life…..THAT is when I failed at life.

Im just annoyed by who and what I observe on the daily, whether that be on the internet or real life. I simply have no more patience for it and I want to die.

 

[xXiloveyouXx]

It was my worst fear so the only way I could accept it is by beginning to identify with it, really embracing being a loser. I guess I needed to reform my ego into one that is less confrontational toward the idea of failing in life? The facts didn't change so I had to change.

 

[passthisnote]

when i graduated hs last year and didn't even know what i was going to do one month from then i knew it was wraps

 

[caotic_realm]

A few years ago, I already realized I didn't fit into the world; I had a suspicion of it back in high school.

-Never having had a girlfriend.
-Difficulty relating to others.
-Not having any real friends.
-Not having a life plan or goal—like working or studying something that feels worthwhile.

When you realize you are different from others, and when you grasp that this difference is not merely something that can be endured in this society, that is the moment you either accept it or keep fighting—much like someone in the middle of a vast ocean thrashing with all their might until their strength fails and they drown.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I didn't fail entirely. Just in my personal experience, the rewards or successes I did achieve weren't worth the enormous effort I put in to get them. They aren't worth the effort I contine to put in to keep them. Or rather- they are in the context that I have to continue to live. But, if death is an option- it's the more attractive one.

As for coming to terms with hurting people with my suicide- I can't. That's why I'm stuck here. There's really only one that I'm holding on for though. After that, I can justify it to myself more. Because I believe my distress at having to keep living will be far more than their distress at hearing I'm (hopefully) gone.

 

[LongJacks]

The process was painful, due to my perfectionism in general - I wanted to do everything and to do it perfect.
I think acceptance came along with deep exhaustion accumulated over every single try at life. At the very last attempt I recognized things won't be good, no matter what I do. The slow decline of my body and cognitive abilities has already begun due to older years. Each year will only speed up the process, like a boulder rolling down a hill.
I guess failing one last time showed me I was doomed from the very start. Tiredness became the ultimate acceptance tool, no coping skills needed. It just clicked in my head all of a sudden, reality laid bare before me - I accepted myself as an objective failure on all fronts possible, and it made me relax, accept, move on.

In ultimate play of life there can be only a few main heroes, a huge load of extras and few who gets to play an inanimate corpse others step over on their adventures. I was always meant to be the latter.

I have OCD so I wanted to have my perfect plan of living by myself in my own safe space to be accomplished but Ik deep down it will never happen... I keep giving myself hope for nothing maybe it's a mechanism against myself

And ik that feeling that you've said of simply letting go, not caring at all and just fall down... it's painful

 

[The Eternal One]

I have OCD so I wanted to have my perfect plan of living by myself in my own safe space to be accomplished but Ik deep down it will never happen... I keep giving myself hope for nothing maybe it's a mechanism against myself

And ik that feeling that you've said of simply letting go, not caring at all and just fall down... it's painful

Thank you for the reply! While it's always pleasant to find understanding, at the same time I'm really, really sorry you happen to recognize the feeling. I'm wishing for your pain to completely go away one day!

 

[itsgone2]

I'm not at peace with it. I hate it. I don't understand why this is possible. Why a life can go so far astray.
I'm not at all ok with it. It's what I need to do and of course the methods are all brutal. Even death will be difficult.

 

[LongJacks]

Thank you for the reply! While it's always pleasant to find understanding, at the same time I'm really, really sorry you happen to recognize the feeling. I'm wishing for your pain to completely go away one day!

Thanks! Ghost hug too I wish everyone could have achieved their dreams and goals but reality and life are a cruel twisted game

I'm not at peace with it. I hate it. I don't understand why this is possible. Why a life can go so far astray.
I'm not at all ok with it. It's what I need to do and of course the methods are all brutal. Even death will be difficult.

Ik that feeling, yes... we never expect life to go that astray somethings go horribly wrong in our lives and changes that we don't expect it sucks, that's true most methods are brutal and CTB is quite difficult

Hugs too man

 

[Ashu]

I tell myself that I put in my best effort, and did everything that others have, and what others have told me. Some people are able to capitalize on the opportunities they were granted. I was granted many opportunities, and pursued them, but sometimes the trees you plant will not bear fruit. That's life, unfortunately. Sometimes you try and try but nothing works, while others make it look easy. Life simply isn't made for everyone and you shouldn't have to spend your existence in what is, for you, a prison just because everyone else thinks it's a playground.

Exactly.

 

[pk@2001]

Well, i won't say u had troubled childhood but right at the age of 19, I was denied my own ambitions and career opportunities which did throw me into frenzy.But still, i kept my head up, decide to switch and build myself from scratch.
Just when I turned 20, got diagnosed with mild hearing loss and hyperacusis( a rare condition where even mild noise can become extremely painful for ur years).

Post then, the turning point was during the fall of 2020 where I started experiencing neurological pain and sensation which almost weakened my muscles and the adds on were mild vibrations and extreme pain which is kind of like parkinson.

Still, I knew my time was up and since then I decided to put my all remaining strength in atleast achieving just 1 f-dream, which by know I have done.
But still being left with this fragile body, where everyday I have to get up with so much pain had made suicidal to a point where I got into extreme depression,

But luckily I found this forum and coming across u guys, i know I'm not alone in this world and surely not alone who feels everyone has a day in what they should do with their lives.

I know I'm failed given my body had given up 6 years ago and I'm still pushing and abusing it to the point where it's fell hell might be a better place than this.

I have a plan of leaving this place before the end of this year, but before this I must put one last gasp for my dreams before I got out with a bang.

 

[Passenger4224]

For me, it was failing again. And again. And again. To the point where I know what's going to happen if I keep trying.

 

[fullypneumatic]

I burnt out of my job I've had for 14 years, and in the months after quitting, I realized how screwed this world is. I'm thinking I should've been born several hundred years ago, because I have nothing but absolute loathing towards this overly-connected surveillance state that has been rising over the last 2 decades. I'm living off my "retirement" savings, because it won't be there when I'm 60. It'd be nice if I could just keep my head down and focus on the present, but once you realize you're in a sinking ship, you can't ignore it.

 

[Gabbi_Station]

i mean, how did you make peace with it? That you are failed and going to leave some people you care about behind?

I honestly believe that I am cursed.

I got really into astrology in my mid twenties , hoping it would turn my existential dread around/give me something to look forward to and instead I just learned I have a bunch of bad placements. It kind of just reinforced my belief as a child that I was doomed to suffer.

I since then have been trying going to church… but after a period where I thought my life was turning around, only to watch it get even worse… I've kind of just accepted that nothing in my life will ever go right.

I just can't give into blind hope that the universe/God will help me out. Self-direction or "trying to make my own fate" has equally failed.

I just have zero hope anything will get better- whether I try to direct my own life or have faith that the universe will help me out.

 

[yuihinafan]

A few years ago, I already realized I didn't fit into the world; I had a suspicion of it back in high school.

-Never having had a girlfriend.
-Difficulty relating to others.
-Not having any real friends.
-Not having a life plan or goal—like working or studying something that feels worthwhile.

When you realize you are different from others, and when you grasp that this difference is not merely something that can be endured in this society, that is the moment you either accept it or keep fighting—much like someone in the middle of a vast ocean thrashing with all their might until their strength fails and they drown.

Literally me, thats when i realised life aint for me lol

 

[craigtucker]

i do cope a lot by trying to understand that the cards i was dealt in life, particularly regarding my family (my own personal source of my intense SI from a young age) were not my choice or anything i had control over, and that subsequently, that environment did have very strong influences on the choices i made as a teen and young adult. it's incredibly unfair, but unfortunately life is not fair inherently and we have to work with what we have

 

[ZwartHartje]

I'm not accepting it. It's not my fault, I can't stand alone by myself against a pack of mass murderers backed by corrupt local government and a corrupt joke of a "legal system" that fails to protect the most defenseless and innocent. I failed to save their lives, but I never really had a chance. But they too will die eventually, and I'll wait for them on the Other Side. I won't let their crimes go away. I'll wait for them along with my murdered loved ones, and we'll take revenge on their murderers.

 

[curiousbeing]

but once you realize you're in a sinking ship, you can't ignore it.

Yeah. It is so scary. I failed at life

I got really into astrology in my mid twenties , hoping it would turn my existential dread around/give me something to look forward to and instead I just learned I have a bunch of bad placements

I did this too. Turns out I am eternally cursed and there is no way I can be saved. But at least astrology was honest enough to directly let me know this truth

a corrupt joke of a "legal system" that fails to protect the most defenseless and innocent

Horrible world

 

[Pluto]

 

[MAKE IT STOP!]

Accepted it quite recently. The creators of a web cartoon I like were having a successful career at my age. Meanwhile, all I do is make memes, work a shitty dead-end job, and bedrot. I've accepted I'm never going to amount to damn anything.

 

[perishsong]

While I struggle to accept it, that I'm fundamentally a failure despite best efforts, it definitely helps to see this world as twisted. I've done the "correct" things that the world dictates - I went to college, I got a degree in a field that always needs workers (LMAOOOOOOOOO), I prioritized the fucking work over everything else, and I still failed. I know I'm incompatible with this world, and I don't even wanna be. The world where cruelty is a must isn't the world worth participating in.