m4rlboror3d
Member
- Jul 3, 2026
- 9
Hi, I'm planning to attempt again today. I'm not sure if it's gonna work, but I feel like I did some good research, and now I just wanna share my last thoughts.
1. I'm scared to leave my little siblings behind because after our mom killed herself, they basically only have me left. I wish I could know how they are going to take it.
2. I'm pretty sure my family won't care because they also don't care about me while I'm alive, so why would it make a difference when I'm dead?
3. My friends and my girlfriend probably won't find out very soon because I don't think my family is going to tell them. I think they might only notice if I stop responding and don't come online in games anymore.
4. I believe in an afterlife, but at the same time I don't. I have a lot of thoughts about how it's going to feel to finally be dead.
5. I'm really scared that everyone will forget about me, but there aren't a lot of people in my life anyway, and they already forget about me while I'm alive, so it doesn't make a difference. Why do I even care about it?
6. I really want to know how long it's going to take someone to find me, because I feel like I'm going to be dead for a few days before anyone notices.
im going to attempt in few hours.
(needed to change my plans but i will for sure attempt soon)
1. I'm scared to leave my little siblings behind because after our mom killed herself, they basically only have me left. I wish I could know how they are going to take it.
2. I'm pretty sure my family won't care because they also don't care about me while I'm alive, so why would it make a difference when I'm dead?
3. My friends and my girlfriend probably won't find out very soon because I don't think my family is going to tell them. I think they might only notice if I stop responding and don't come online in games anymore.
4. I believe in an afterlife, but at the same time I don't. I have a lot of thoughts about how it's going to feel to finally be dead.
5. I'm really scared that everyone will forget about me, but there aren't a lot of people in my life anyway, and they already forget about me while I'm alive, so it doesn't make a difference. Why do I even care about it?
6. I really want to know how long it's going to take someone to find me, because I feel like I'm going to be dead for a few days before anyone notices.
im going to attempt in few hours.
(needed to change my plans but i will for sure attempt soon)
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