How close are you to commit suicide?

[lynnschronicles]

As close as I am to figuring out how to get an SN source again (got DMC like a year ago but didn't buy it in time )

 

[peewee]

im hoping in couple of days I have opportunity, but now my si is kicking in that getting close. it doesnt make sense because Im sufferung alot but as soon as i really think about ctb i get hopeful, but i know its the best thing for me. I think i just get sad thinking about how it will affect my loved ones
if I could get SN or KN....I found sources but afraid of a welfare check if i order them as im in the uk

 

[Hangman.]

I will do it immediately when I get the opportunity.

 

[hannu555]

If I could actually get SN from a reliable source for peace of mind, then maybe in a few months.

 

[whybother2002]

If my SN had arrived I'd do it tonight

 

[Cauliflour]

Right now? Don't really feel like it. Sucidal thoughts seem to come in waves for me nowadays even though it's not like I've done much to better myself in that time frame. In fact, I think my pallete of "safe foods" is starting to restrict again so maybe I'll be more inclined to be more active on here and get the thoughts back and rolling again idk. Been doing somewhat fine after I was like "probably gonna kill myself in 12 months" almost 2 months ago which I find kinda funny but hey I'm not complaining.

 

[Rqvn67]

The day they tell me that my brain cancer is progressing too quickly and start talking to me about end-of-life care.

 

[ConstantPain]

It varies quite a bit but today I'd say is an 8. I've had some dreams of dying lately (and yes they are the best I've ever had) but there's no more hesitation in them. It's just like I know it's happening and I close my eyes, my body gets really hot and then starts shutting down and it's amazing. The best ones have been jumping and in a vehicle flooring it into a tree, but I wasn't driving. They have me rethinking my plan a bit because I think I want to have that few seconds of awareness that it's really finally ending.

It's quite possible that I'm losing my job next week and then I might finally rise to the point of doing it.

 

[dissociation]

Days, weeks or months.

 

[vira]

Ugh I'm afraid of this. Getting the rope and doing the knots was pretty easy. I'm fortunate to have a good anchor point. But to actually do it really is something else.

i wish i had a good anchor point haha. i hope you find the peace you deserve

 

[Dark Moon]

I'm somewhat close but I need a different location where I'm now to do it and a better method than hanging if possible because that's all I have access to and jumping. I don't want to botch it and I need a better oppurtunity.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

very close. the main point of my life now is to save up on money for CO, and find a partner.

I don't have money for a gun, but I could afford charcoal and a little grill. Thinking about jumping on this. I don't want to wake up brain damaged but all the successes out of places like Korea make me think it's workable.

This would be an impulsive attempt with no dry run or CO meter. Which is asking for trouble.

 

[coralreef]

I lack courage, but I'm trying to build it up, and I think Im close. Suicide seems like the rational choice in my situation, but the methods available to me are hard to go through with.
Right now I'm practicing and trying to get used to my method, hoping to overcome my SI so I can finally end my life. I wish I had access to SN.

 

[eternalpace]

I ordered and paid for the gun and amoo online for shipment from the warehouse to the store... just waiting for the call to pickup. I go in, have a background check, and walk out. Ordering online is slower than just showing up and buying in person, but it avoids conversations about why I'm buying and any awkward moments. Target date is shortly after pickup once I take care of a few things. I tried partial hanging many years ago and that was a disaster. Fortunately, I'm now in a state where buying a gun is relatively easy.

 

[itsgone2]

This would be an impulsive attempt with no dry run or CO meter. Which is asking for trouble

Maybe. I know what you mean but I've also read reports where it didn't seem very well planned at all. Just in a fairly open room and such. I'd love to do this method but I agree with you that it could be asking for trouble

 

[perishsong]

I wanna spend Xmas with my family before I CTB, so probably the beginning of 2026. Unless I'm sacked way earlier than that.

 

[claracatchingthebus]

If i had to guess, 2 years and 6/10 for confidence.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I don't have money for a gun, but I could afford charcoal and a little grill. Thinking about jumping on this. I don't want to wake up brain damaged but all the successes out of places like Korea make me think it's workable.

This would be an impulsive attempt with no dry run or CO meter. Which is asking for trouble.

I'm also strongly considering pushing a razor blade right into the pulse on my neck and giving it a rip. Don't even need to go to the store.

 

[cciro]

Got my kn. Just waiting till december. Whether I can actually go through with it in the moment is unknown but am pretty mentally commited right now.