Venting Hopefully soon

[TheCavernousDeep.]

I have my method. It's painless, instant and accessible. I'm delaying it because there's a big family event I don't want to ruin but after that, I'm done.

I can't live like this. I can't live with this shame. I don't know how I'm supposed to. I don't know why it's expected of me. Why do the people who supposedly love me think that's okay to expect of me? Huh? No. If they truly love me they will be happy I'm at peace. That's right PEACE! An end to a suffering that will not end any other way. I am not bitter about the life that I've been given, It was a good deal better than I deserved. But I can't be expected to choose to live when I KNOW all the future has for me is more shame.

I'm aiming for the 14th. Hopefully I'll be back home by then. I wish I didn't have to die in this shitty condo in this shitty city living this shitty life but hey, it's on me for letting it go on this long right? There's only one way to stop the bleeding.

 

[Bitter Almonds]

I hope you find the peace you're looking for.

 

[DeadManLiving]

Damm this is hard to read. No one should be in this much pain. I hope you catch a windfall or second wind out of this impending tragic outcome.

 

[itsgone2]

I have my method. It's painless, instant and accessible

What method?

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find freedom from suffering.

 

[Alexandra_]

I wish you good luck. May you find freedom from the suffering of this world. I understand your choice. Life isn't for everyone. I hate being alive