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[imhuman]

Hello I'm sorry I dnt check in or chat I wish I could but I barley talk to myself et some others just some background on me ok so I'm 42 yrs old live in wales uk been depressed since I'd say 14 had my first stay in hospital At 15 forced fed and sucide attempts life just went downhill my family disappeared as I was an embarrassment being in hospital but honestly that ok friends were not friends it seemed t least they were till they took everything off me then they were well they were hurt not me as I was mental now I live I mean just me no friends no family just myself in darkness lonely as sad as that sounds I just need this all to end I feel like a totally monster trapped with nowhere to go and I can't understand why I can't be liked by any people not even my family I astoppead eating free yrs of being told I'm fat nd eat to much my mum hated me never wanted me would disappear for weeks while I left alone 43yrfs old and don't know who I am or a what I am

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are in this situation. I can imagine it must be unbearable to be in so much pain. I understand that it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[LivideLamb]

You're not a monster! Life's freaking unfair, and it really sucks. Sadly, we can't always be happy and numb. Even most people who appear that way are also sad, that's what makes us humans. I'm really sorry that you're feeling this way. Wishing you sunny days ahead !