Hi Guys
First of all I want to tell you my story. I was working for a big company in the last 10 years and I was really happy about my career because I started as a simple picker to become a manager.
After two years that Im working as manager my boss started to get more pressure to me. She started to do mobbing on me and she said that i will be fired soon. I was searching for an home to buy with my girlfriend but thats where my depression become much stronger than me. I started looking for another job and I didn't find nothing. After a while I feel so tired and I didn't find a way to get up. I became really sick and i didn't go to work for 2 months but without another work I started to plan my suicide. Because I'm from Italy I started to contact some Switzerland clinics that help to kill yourself but I didn't find help because I needed a medic that said to me that i was understanding my choice and i was free to die. So I started to amass all my pills to plan a suicide a month later. My doctor said that or i will go to a psychiatric hospital or i will go back to my family and i need to choose this in two days. As I don't see any of these options as good for me I took all the pills i got and i choose to kill myself. I was so stupid that I din't take alcohol with the pills so after two days of coma I was send to a psychiatric hospital for two months. Meanwhile my girlfriend left me after 15 yeas of relationship and this worsen the situation. But when i was in the hospital i got lucky and I find a better job.
I started with this company and everything was good. My colleagues was really ok but after just 3 months the company seems to start to didn't pay our salary because they got a problem. Is 3 month that they didn't pay our salary but they said that the money will come for the end of the month. I started again looking for another job but it is so stressful that I got panic attacks and I feel depressed a lot.
After all this story I ask you for help. I want to schedule my suicide again because I'm so tired of everything.
I want to find a way that is not painful or scary but I didn't know how to do and it must be a safe way of dying because I don't want to go to another hospital again.
Psychiatric hospitals are the worst place on earth
Can you help me with this?
And sorry for the long post
Sorry also for the bad english
First of all I want to tell you my story. I was working for a big company in the last 10 years and I was really happy about my career because I started as a simple picker to become a manager.
After two years that Im working as manager my boss started to get more pressure to me. She started to do mobbing on me and she said that i will be fired soon. I was searching for an home to buy with my girlfriend but thats where my depression become much stronger than me. I started looking for another job and I didn't find nothing. After a while I feel so tired and I didn't find a way to get up. I became really sick and i didn't go to work for 2 months but without another work I started to plan my suicide. Because I'm from Italy I started to contact some Switzerland clinics that help to kill yourself but I didn't find help because I needed a medic that said to me that i was understanding my choice and i was free to die. So I started to amass all my pills to plan a suicide a month later. My doctor said that or i will go to a psychiatric hospital or i will go back to my family and i need to choose this in two days. As I don't see any of these options as good for me I took all the pills i got and i choose to kill myself. I was so stupid that I din't take alcohol with the pills so after two days of coma I was send to a psychiatric hospital for two months. Meanwhile my girlfriend left me after 15 yeas of relationship and this worsen the situation. But when i was in the hospital i got lucky and I find a better job.
I started with this company and everything was good. My colleagues was really ok but after just 3 months the company seems to start to didn't pay our salary because they got a problem. Is 3 month that they didn't pay our salary but they said that the money will come for the end of the month. I started again looking for another job but it is so stressful that I got panic attacks and I feel depressed a lot.
After all this story I ask you for help. I want to schedule my suicide again because I'm so tired of everything.
I want to find a way that is not painful or scary but I didn't know how to do and it must be a safe way of dying because I don't want to go to another hospital again.
Psychiatric hospitals are the worst place on earth
Can you help me with this?
And sorry for the long post
Sorry also for the bad english
