help please!

[mangomango]

Hi everyone! I'm new here and would like some advice please. I've been suicidal for like 5 years now, and it only gets worse lol. I used to live in the US with my bf but my career went to shit, I'm too depressed todo anything consistently (including a job), im a complete failure in life and my relationship with my bf isn't working out so I've moved back home to South Africa. I have no friends (all my friends abandoned me because of my severe depression). I have a great family, but unfortunately that's not enough of a reason to stay alive at this point.

I feel SO MUCH guilt about ctb but i actually can't bear to stay alive anymore. Is there a way to kill myself without it looking like a suicide? I was gonna try suffocating with a plastic bag but I'm not sure how effective that method is, and it's too obvious. I'm not sure how to access sodium nitrate from south africa but I just want a quick, somewhat painless death that doesn't look like suicide. I know I'm probably asking for too much but I just thought it might be worth a shot.

thank u in advance! (ps im so grateful for this space, I feel like I've finally found a group of likeminded people!!)

 

[PeacefulTonic]

Sorry, there's no way a suicide can be made to look like an accident, unless you have outside assistance. And they could be faced with legal implications

 

[mangomango]

Sorry, there's no way a suicide can be made to look like an accident, unless you have outside assistance. And they could be faced with legal implications

oh man :(

 

[Cherry xoxo]

I know how you feel, I also wanted my death to look like an accident but unfortunately that's really hard to do I've settled for SN.
I also have alot of guilt but mainly because of my family and I know how much it would hurt them but each day just crushes me more and more and it's too difficult to hold onto this life.

I'm also from SA, there's many chemical suppliers that sell SN, I got mine within a couple of days it was also really cheap like less than R200 with delivery.

 

[mangomango]

I know how you feel, I also wanted my death to look like an accident but unfortunately that's really hard to do I've settled for SN.
I also have alot of guilt but mainly because of my family and I know how much it would hurt them but each day just crushes me more and more and it's too difficult to hold onto this life.

I'm also from SA, there's many chemical suppliers that sell SN, I got mine within a couple of days it was also really cheap like less than R200 with delivery.

ahh I totally relate! would you mind sending me the link or telling me the name of the website you got your SN from? (sorry for being so annoying and thank you in advance!)

 

[Manaaja]

ahh I totally relate! would you mind sending me the link or telling me the name of the website you got your SN from? (sorry for being so annoying and thank you in advance!)

There's a new rule: no sources! Because of anti-suicide people, we won't be posting sources anymore. It's against the rules.

 

[Cherry xoxo]

ahh I totally relate! would you mind sending me the link or telling me the name of the website you got your SN from? (sorry for being so annoying and thank you in advance!)

You can pm me..

 

[blueclover_.]

I have a plan... lol. Pm me if you wanna talk about anything

 

[summers]

Sorry, there's no way a suicide can be made to look like an accident, unless you have outside assistance. And they could be faced with legal implications

Yes, there is. 100% done by yourself. I know at least 3.

 

[PeacefulTonic]

Yes, there is. 100% done by yourself. I know at least 3.

Enlighten me

 

[Pluto]

A bittersweet welcome to you! Since you're in ZA, have you considered booping the snoot of a rhino?

Hope you feel some relief from having understanding from us here.

 

[Cherry xoxo]

Yes, there is. 100% done by yourself. I know at least 3.

Please share

 

[Geturdone]

Yes, there is. 100% done by yourself. I know at least 3.

Yes , threesummers, I agree. Several I've thought of just now take some planning and resolve. I'm reminded of the case of David Carradine's death by auto asphyxiation. Admittedly, such a situation will take some staging but a vivid account of his death can be found on the internet. Cases like his are always ruled accidental. Then too there's automobile accidents, electrocution, falls from high places or in front of subway trains. I've always heard drowning can be quite pleasant. All can be carried out with no other help. We here know that suicide is serious business and requires serious thought and planning to be successful. I happen to think it's the impulsive attempts, situations involving GSW to the head, pills etc that can be avoided and make everything appear accidental. Best wishes to all. It's very cold where I live today so I'll even add "stay warm" lol

 

[mangomango]

You can pm me..

damn, for some reason this site isn't letting me pm people, but I'll definitely look up some suppliers. Thank you!

A bittersweet welcome to you! Since you're in ZA, have you considered booping the snoot of a rhino?

Hope you feel some relief from having understanding from us here.

haha I've never thought to do that but Im definitely curious now

Yes, there is. 100% done by yourself. I know at least 3.

omg please share!