Help Help me out; dealing with DID and suicidal thoughts

[fourleaftiger]

Hi there. First time poster; found out about this place today and decided to sign up to get some help from those who have fellow suicidal thoughts.

I am a person with dissociative identity and disorder. I can't control some of the suicidal thoughts I get, as they're from other alters, and honestly it's terrifying. I'm scared one day I'm going to wake up in a hospital with slit wrists due to another alter just taking over and deciding to end it. There have been some close calls before and I don't know what to do. Im in therapy 'nd all, but I don't think it helps. Can anyone help me out or give suggestions?

Thank you everyone for your time.

 

[Pale_Rider]

Absolutely terrifying.

 

[dustyrainbow]

hi! I wanted to ask if we can talk about this in dms? Unfortunately I can't message you, but I went through similar experiences - I always talk about "waking up and realizing I'm dead", if you know what I mean?
It IS terrifying indeed and I didn't find a solution so far, but I'd be more than relieved to talk to someone with similar experiences:)

 

[secretghost]

I think I might be dealing with the same but I'm not diagnosed and not at all interested in really facing my own reality with potential DID, it only came up in my life because of suicide I think and I really empathize. There are days when I feel like I'm just camped out inside watching to see what my body is going to do and there have been times where I think part of me attempted or started to attempt while I wasn't there at all. I don't have any advice but if you ever want to chat, if I'm here, I'm here. wishing you the best