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bleujaune88

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Jun 19, 2026
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I come from a third-world country, I am a woman, and I am 30 years old. I have a Master's degree. I have survived incest and pedophilia. I have no family, no friends, no boyfriend (still a virgin). I have never had a relationship. I have done nothing with my life and built nothing, because as a woman in the third world, without any support or connections to enter the workforce, and on top of that, I had very serious health problems. I fled my country for France, and here I no longer have the right to asylum or to work because I am an undocumented person, and I have no money left to live. I am thinking of ending it all. Please help me. I have the following medications: pregabalin, valium, cyamemazine, and morphine. Please help me find the mixture/protocol with these medications to help me die. Thank you.
 
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xhersekk

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Apr 22, 2026
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I believe overdose have a high probability of failure.
Have you considered fsh?
 
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Can you ever stop the suffering?
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I'm extremely sorry what ever you are going through. I'm from 3rd world too and living with fked up life. Life was so so unfair for us. Same I'm a woman too and have nothing else but only suffering, doing my courses for nothing and I'm so behind in life and life is torture. My biggest dream is to escape this shit but I can't as I have no money to escape too or legal papers. Please do/try a method that doesn't leave with vegetative state. There's sources in this site you can find out. I wish you ultimate peace and I'm again so sorry for what fate did to you.
 
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Hollowman

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If I didn't have access to proper methods (SN and beyond), my idea would be to down a copious amount of alcohol, copious amount of pain killers. Remove the airbag system from my car and just drive straight into a wall at top speed. (OR if you don't have that, some highways have pedestrian bridges on them, usually at a height of about 6-8m. Simple really, pain killers + alc, climb up, jump down (do it fast so they can't stop and are guaranteed to hit you).
Wtf, don't suggest methods that involve others. Causing a potential pileup on a highway, traumatizing, killing people is not cool.
 
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bleujaune88

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Jun 19, 2026
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I'm extremely sorry what ever you are going through. I'm from 3rd world too and living with fked up life. Life was so so unfair for us. Same I'm a woman too and have nothing else but only suffering, doing my courses for nothing and I'm so behind in life and life is torture. My biggest dream is to escape this shit but I can't as I have no money to escape too or legal papers. Please do/try a method that doesn't leave with vegetative state. There's sources in this site you can find out. I wish you ultimate peace and I'm again so sorry for what fate did to you.
thank you ❤️ do u know any method that doesn't leave with vegetative state ? an efficient one. thank you
 
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danielplainview

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Mar 22, 2026
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I come from a third-world country, I am a woman, and I am 30 years old. I have a Master's degree. I have survived incest and pedophilia. I have no family, no friends, no boyfriend (still a virgin). I have never had a relationship. I have done nothing with my life and built nothing, because as a woman in the third world, without any support or connections to enter the workforce, and on top of that, I had very serious health problems. I fled my country for France, and here I no longer have the right to asylum or to work because I am an undocumented person, and I have no money left to live. I am thinking of ending it all. Please help me. I have the following medications: pregabalin, valium, cyamemazine, and morphine. Please help me find the mixture/protocol with these medications to help me die. Thank you.
How did you get morphine?
 
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bleujaune88

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Jun 19, 2026
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guys i have chronic illness that's how i got medication. any help ?
 
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its_so_over

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How did you survive and how does one aquire it?
 
h3u8e7u

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Jul 13, 2025
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since u have morphine the sky is the limit
you shouldn't try to od on morphine alone though
u must combine it with a substance that will certainly cause death.
it could be digoxine
i'm planning on taking morphine along with sodium nitrite capsules
How did you survive and how does one aquire it?
i was joking. I'm pretty sure no one has ever survived it.
 
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bleujaune88

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Jun 19, 2026
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since u have morphine the sky is the limit
you shouldn't try to od on morphine alone though
u must combine it with a substance that will certainly cause death.
it could be digoxine
i'm planning on taking morphine along with sodium nitrite capsules

i was joking. I'm pretty sure no one has ever survived it.
are you sure it's gonna work ?
 
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I'm not sure but I will plan to take SN without extra steps or if not lazy etc N2O in whipped cream chargers and a bag. There are a few options I might consider that includes passing out and partial hanging.

I can relate (almost illegal as well). Probably soon. Some parallels I mean. Tried my best left and now I don't even know what I will do once I'm broke and/or undocumented.
 
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bleujaune88

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I'm not sure but I will plan to take SN without extra steps or if not lazy etc N2O in whipped cream chargers and a bag. There are a few options I might consider that includes passing out and partial hanging.

I can relate (almost illegal as well). Probably soon. Some parallels I mean. Tried my best left and now I don't even know what I will do once I'm broke and/or undocumented.
damn 😔
 
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adamantc

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Mar 29, 2026
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are you sure it's gonna work ?
It will work. Of course, drug combinations offer increased safety. In this case though, any amount of morphine above 600-800mg (assuming you are opioid-naive) should kill. It'll be very peaceful, and rarely causes vegetative state.
 
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bleujaune88

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It will work. Of course, drug combinations offer increased safety. In this case though, any amount of morphine above 600-800mg (assuming you are opioid-naive) should kill. It'll be very peaceful, and rarely causes vegetative state.
thank you ❤️
 
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Ilfryth

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Jun 9, 2026
12
I come from a third-world country, I am a woman, and I am 30 years old. I have a Master's degree. I have survived incest and pedophilia. I have no family, no friends, no boyfriend (still a virgin). I have never had a relationship. I have done nothing with my life and built nothing, because as a woman in the third world, without any support or connections to enter the workforce, and on top of that, I had very serious health problems. I fled my country for France, and here I no longer have the right to asylum or to work because I am an undocumented person, and I have no money left to live. I am thinking of ending it all. Please help me. I have the following medications: pregabalin, valium, cyamemazine, and morphine. Please help me find the mixture/protocol with these medications to help me die. Thank you.

From what I know, those medications combined in high doses are actually deadly but 1) It just stops breathing which is quite horrible, you might as well just choke yourself and 2) it won't do much since your body is already used to opioids

Anyway, as another immigrant in France I can say from experience that being undocumented is far from hopeless. Sorry if I come off as patronizing and you don't learn anything, but there's so so much help and facilities around and most refugees actually don't take advantage of what they're owed and entitled to. For one I assume you already use AME since you're medicated but it also extends to psychological help and you can get free therapy or antidepressants, especially by asking at a CMP (Centre-Médico Psychologique).

Because you have no family/friends and have been abused in your home country you can absolutely make an appeal (recours) to get your asylum, especially after getting diagnosticated at a psychiatrist.

There are many associations that help undocumented immigrants with papers (even giving free lawyers, who can help with appealing) and charity such as CIMADE, France Terre d'Asile, the Red Cross, Anafé and many others that you can find locally. There's also API which can get your degree recognized in France. For general food and charity you can queue at Restos du Cœur, Emmaüs, Secours Catholique. You can buy super cheap food with the mobile app Too Good To Go or ask the leftovers at markets when they're about to close.

Working while undocumented is still possible, black market work is insanely common and even locals do it because the taxes and charges in France are crazy. A significant amount of restaurant cooks, cleaners etc are undocumented. You can show up very early at markets and ask if they need help. Tutoring, baby-sitting or cleaning through an online platform is possible too. Plus if you keep evidence of your work (like messages or paycheck) it can prove your stay in France and help getting asylum.

You can just show up at a mairie or better a CCAS to ask for help and directions, they know which associations are nearby and available. And lastly even if you get an OQTF to leave the territority it's not much of a deal because those pretty much never get applied, especially if you're a woman and depending on the country you're from the chances drop to zero.

Wishing you best for the future ♥️
 
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bleujaune88

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From what I know, those medications combined in high doses are actually deadly but 1) It just stops breathing which is quite horrible, you might as well just choke yourself and 2) it won't do much since your body is already used to opioids

Anyway, as another immigrant in France I can say from experience that being undocumented is far from hopeless. Sorry if I come off as patronizing and you don't learn anything, but there's so so much help and facilities around and most refugees actually don't take advantage of what they're owed and entitled to. For one I assume you already use AME since you're medicated but it also extends to psychological help and you can get free therapy or antidepressants, especially by asking at a CMP (Centre-Médico Psychologique).

Because you have no family/friends and have been abused in your home country you can absolutely make an appeal (recours) to get your asylum, especially after getting diagnosticated at a psychiatrist.

There are many associations that help undocumented immigrants with papers (even giving free lawyers, who can help with appealing) and charity such as CIMADE, France Terre d'Asile, the Red Cross, Anafé and many others that you can find locally. There's also API which can get your degree recognized in France. For general food and charity you can queue at Restos du Cœur, Emmaüs, Secours Catholique. You can buy super cheap food with the mobile app Too Good To Go or ask the leftovers at markets when they're about to close.

Working while undocumented is still possible, black market work is insanely common and even locals do it because the taxes and charges in France are crazy. A significant amount of restaurant cooks, cleaners etc are undocumented. You can show up very early at markets and ask if they need help. Tutoring, baby-sitting or cleaning through an online platform is possible too. Plus if you keep evidence of your work (like messages or paycheck) it can prove your stay in France and help getting asylum.

You can just show up at a mairie or better a CCAS to ask for help and directions, they know which associations are nearby and available. And lastly even if you get an OQTF to leave the territority it's not much of a deal because those pretty much never get applied, especially if you're a woman and depending on the country you're from the chances drop to zero.

Wishing you best for the future ♥️
yes thank you i know all of that. can you help me please find black market job. i don't know where to find it since i dont know anyone and please which online platforms can i use to find missions/work.


yes i have oqtf 😔
 
Ilfryth

Ilfryth

No Longer Human
Jun 9, 2026
12
yes thank you i know all of that. can you help me please find black market job. i don't know where to find it since i dont know anyone and please which online platforms can i use to find missions/work.


yes i have oqtf 😔
Sorry for late answer I'm not too active

You literally just show up at restaurants or markets or whatever and ask for a job that's all.

For online platforms there's : Leboncoin, SuperProf, yoojo, allovoisins, voscours, and local facebook groups in your city asking for whatever service. Make sure to make it clear from the get go you take cash only
 
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bleujaune88

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Jun 19, 2026
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yes thank you i know all of that. can you help me please find black market job. i don't know where to find it since i dont know anyone and please which online platforms can i use to find missions/work.


yes i have oqtf 😔
hi
tomorrow I'm going to try at a market. lets hope he doesn't ask me about my oqtf 🙏 i will let you know
 
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Ilfryth

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Jun 9, 2026
12
hi
tomorrow I'm going to try at a market. lets hope he doesn't ask me about my oqtf 🙏 i will let you know
Show up super early like 6 am

Ppl probably won't ask about it, if they really ask just say you're in the process of getting your papers stay vague. If you don't find a job first try then go to restaurants or bakeries owned by ethnic people (in general not necessarily your ethnicity) they're very welcoming usually.

Good luck sis ✌️
 
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bleujaune88

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Jun 19, 2026
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Show up super early like 6 am

Ppl probably won't ask about it, if they really ask just say you're in the process of getting your papers stay vague. If you don't find a job first try then go to restaurants or bakeries owned by ethnic people (in general not necessarily your ethnicity) they're very welcoming usually.

Good luck sis ✌️
i wen to an ethnic store and he said no
damn 😔
 
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The respiratory arrest from opioids is not horrible, it's actually amazing, it doesn't feel like suffocating at all. But since you already took them for some time you might not die from them alone.

I'd suggest that you try normalizing your situation as an asylum seeker first, before looking for jobs. Try appealing the denial like Ilfryth said. Let us know how that goes.
 

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