I hope to be reunited with all my murdered loved ones in the Great Beyond. I don't like to call it heaven because I despise the tyrant god of the monotheistic religions.
There is no such "god" who is pure goodness, this much I can take as a fact, and here's why:
1. The god of Christianity etc. is evidently a nasty, petty, jealous tyrant, the evidence is right there in his bible for everyone to read.
2. Then there is the *All*, which is what I believe in; some see it as synonymous with "god" but I have a strong dislike for that term because of its strong association with the aforementioned, petty tyrant god of the bible. But the All is not pure goodness either, it cannot be because it is All - there exists nothing that isn't part of the All, since otherwise the All couldn't be "all". The All therefore contains all of goodness and bliss, but contains as well all imaginable and unimaginable cruelty and horror, because it is All.
I hope that in the infinity that is the All there is a place for everything and everyone that has ever existed. When we ascend from this world we'll have a higher perspective, and all the painful memories are not what defines us, and we can detach from them and let them go. This much I heard a lot, and it makes sense to me.
Personally though, since I'm anything but a Christian, I don't believe in undeserved forgiveness. I refuse to ever forgive the murderers of my loved ones, and I absolutely intend to make them pay.