Heart problems due to isolation

[mentalhealthfighter]

I can feel the veins near my heart being narrowed. Same for my brain function. All these meds and me refusing to interact with anyone is making me deteriorate quickly. Hopefully I die in my sleep or something.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I can feel the veins near my heart being narrowed. Same for my brain function. All these meds and me refusing to interact with anyone is making me deteriorate quickly. Hopefully I die in my sleep or something.

I know this feeling… I wonder if it's real or just our imagination… That feeling like we're dying… I know that it happens to old people

 

[toasterbath]

fucking same going crazy staring at walls all day and shit. i brought myself outside one day and i felt so disoriented and just dissociated. so pathetic. i pray for death in my sleep everyday

 

[mentalhealthfighter]

I know this feeling… I wonder if it's real or just our imagination… That feeling like we're dying… I know that it happens to old people

I fucking love that feeling. I don't tell anyone hoping to die in my sleep

fucking same going crazy staring at walls all day and shit. i brought myself outside one day and i felt so disoriented and just dissociated. so pathetic. i pray for death in my sleep everyday

Why not go do something? I like to draw

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I fucking love that feeling. I don't tell anyone hoping to die in my sleep

Why not go do something? I like to draw

You love the feeling? Of decay? I think maybe I understand… In someways I like the feeling of total inertia because then I'm off the hook… All the things that I obviously should be doing… It's like being sick… I can't possibly take a shower I don't have the energy… I couldn't possibly get back in touch with those people who were texting me… I'm too ill… Why not do something? There's nothing to do… What would be the point? Are used to be this darkened house on a nearby Street With the yard all over grown and a broken down car in the driveway… and I knew somebody lived there because it night sometimes there was a light on inside… But I wondered who they were and why it was so dark and quiet in there… And now I understand… I think they were very old… I'm sure some people look into my place and wonder the same thing… What's going on in there… used to be little dinner parties and people singing and laughing and coming in and out now it's just dark…

 

[FuneralCry]

Of course I also wish to die in my sleep. That would be ideal as it would mean that I would not have to think about ctb methods. I'm sorry that you have to endure this. To me it's so awful how our bodies are capable of torturing us so much. Best wishes.

 

[Mashedout]

fucking same going crazy staring at walls all day and shit. i brought myself outside one day and i felt so disoriented and just dissociated. so pathetic. i pray for death in my sleep everyday

We went from roaming the plains hunting for food to sitting inside a house all day. There goes against our nature as much as trying to dismiss a sex drive. There are endless studies which prove the importance of exercise. For anyone who wishes better mood and perspective to make decisions from, they MUST excerise to realign with our default natural state.

 

[Hollowman]

You love the feeling? Of decay? I think maybe I understand… In someways I like the feeling of total inertia because then I'm off the hook… All the things that I obviously should be doing… It's like being sick… I can't possibly take a shower I don't have the energy… I couldn't possibly get back in touch with those people who were texting me… I'm too ill… Why not do something? There's nothing to do… What would be the point? Are used to be this darkened house on a nearby Street With the yard all over grown and a broken down car in the driveway… and I knew somebody lived there because it night sometimes there was a light on inside… But I wondered who they were and why it was so dark and quiet in there… And now I understand… I think they were very old… I'm sure some people look into my place and wonder the same thing… What's going on in there… used to be little dinner parties and people singing and laughing and coming in and out now it's just dark…

A few years ago I talked to one of my neighbors and she was surprised at my age ( 45ish at the time) said she thought I was ederly. Because I hardly ever go out or have people over apparently. My self awareness is impaired, they probably all think im a freak but I don't really care anymore.

 

[brokensea]

I'm so alone and lonely and miserable but I don't want to be around anyone either.

 

[Funeralprincess]

Defintiely a real thing. The love of my life abandoned me so that's my main CTB reason as over the years it's destroyed my health. I have spent much time in isolation, and my heart has become weak. I'll often be woken up by my racing heart and panic attacks, and other times I can't breathe when my heart issues wake me. It's horrid

 

[gimzero]

If i die in my sleep nobody find me for days and that happen a lot where i live so i am in the same boat.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I always wondered whether you could die of a broken heart. Like when you hear of old couples- where one dies shortly after the other. Especially when I was younger, I used to grieve so heavily for the people who have passed in my family. I could feel the hurt in my heart. I always thought- if I just felt it that bit more intensely, maybe it would be enough but it (obviously) never worked. Always felt it a kind of failure I couldn't will myself away.

 

[tired868686]

I always wondered whether you could die of a broken heart. Like when you hear of old couples- where one dies shortly after the other. Especially when I was younger, I used to grieve so heavily for the people who have passed in my family. I could feel the hurt in my heart. I always thought- if I just felt it that bit more intensely, maybe it would be enough but it (obviously) never worked. Always felt it a kind of failure I couldn't will myself away.

I think people can die from grief, but not in a simple way.
The body can react terribly to huge stress e.g grief.
But then again it can survive the most awful things too, like being a prisoner of war. Or being tortured.
It's so strange what the body can endure, but the mind can break very easily. Unfortunately a broken mind will not cause physical death on its own.
It's horrible people have to suffer so much mentally and physically.