Venting He felt like home to me

[BlueButterfly111]

I know most people will ignore this and I understand why. But today is the Birthday of my boyfriend who passed away 6 months ago. It would've been only my second year celebrating his Birthday with him. I miss him eternally, like I said before he is my soulmate, and my heart and soul felt like it
was connected to his. I can still feel his energy really strongly, I can still feel his body close to mine. It felt like in this life, we were supposed to meet each other before our deaths. And even though I won't see him again in this lifetime, I just hope that we can be connected again somehow after I die. I've never felt overly attached to this life, but he gave me a reason to believe in something.

He was so special to me, so perfect for me, his death was the most hurtful thing to finally break my heart completely. I still dream about him. Idk why I'm writing this, I know most will ignore it, and I'm not getting my point across good. I guess it's just because I miss him so much and I don't have anyone else to talk to about it who understands. And I wish I could've spent his Birthday with him. I know he's in a better place and I'm not grieving so much anymore, I just will always miss him in this lifetime.

No one really understands or cares about my feelings, or the connection we had, but he would've understood. But I still keep trying to get my feelings across for some reason. To lose a soulmate, at least for me is such a lonely thing that no one understands. I can spend time with so many people on this Earth, but none of it is comparable to even a few minutes spent with him.

I don't know how much longer I have on this Earth, I think this might be my last year. I guess this is my little way of honoring my baby's memory, somehow. I'm still so in love with him, I will love him forever.

 

[KillingPain267]

This is how I feel about my spouse of 8 years who is still alive but left me The words somehow resonate with me even though it's different

 

[CatLvr]

I understand and I'm sorry for your pain.

 

[dontwakemeup]

I read everything, you are heard. I'm sorry you're missing your soul mate and having a difficult time today. Maybe you can take this opportunity to celebrate the moments you guys shared. Try to focus on the good times if you can, I know it's hard.

Would you like to share how you guys met? Was it like the traditional love at first site? I'd love to hear your stories, if you're up to it.

 

[BlueButterfly111]

I read everything, you are heard. I'm sorry you're missing your soul mate and having a difficult time today. Maybe you can take this opportunity to celebrate the moments you guys shared. Try to focus on the good times if you can, I know it's hard.

Would you like to share how you guys met? Was it like the traditional love at first site? I'd love to hear your stories, if you're up to it.

Awww thank you so much! That's really so nice of you! I really appreciate it. I do plan on going to the park today, we used to go walking there together, he really motivated me a lot and it feels like our special place. I haven't been in over a week, so it'll be nice.

So I met him originally on a dating app online, we talked for a few weeks and then I met him in person, (he had to come pick me up because I don't have a car lol).

I guess it wasn't like a love at first site thing for me, but I noticed with him I felt different then how I'd felt with some of my previous partners. Like I just felt like a spark, butterflies in my stomach, excitement. I don't just get those feelings with people, so I knew he was special.

I think for him maybe it was a love at first site thing though. He told me later on that he was in love with me from the first moment he saw me. That's another reason why I think he was my soulmate because I think he just knew. Like I know now, the soul just knows. And I know that there are people that don't believe in concepts like that, and I don't blame them. But because of the experience that I had with him, I just know for me, there's something there. I also had a dream about him passing away a few months before he passed away, and I told him about the dream. I also had many dreams about him while we were together, which is another thing I've never experienced. For me to be so close to a person, and to have all these experiences feels like a soul connection.

I also found out after he passed away that he told his mom and sister that he loved me, which I think was just so sweet and makes me tear up every time I think about it!

 

[dontwakemeup]

Awe. I just love hearing love stories. He definitely sounds like he was a sweet and wonderful person. That's crazy you had those dreams about him and it was actually correct.

I often wonder why so people come into our lives. Seems he came to help you through life and show you the true meaning of love. Like you said, he made you believe in love again. I bet you guys shared so much great time and memories with you.

Try to remember, you also helped him. Whether he knew he was gonna die or not, take comfort in knowing his last days were spent with you and it sounds like he was happy. I'm sorry the relationship was cĥr short.

I think it's a beautiful idea to go to the park and enjoy and celebrate him. I know it's tough. I can't promise you it won't hurt for a long time but at some point it was for easier to deal with.

I hope you can make it to the park and have aome peace and solace.

 

[BlueButterfly111]

Awe. I just love hearing love stories. He definitely sounds like he was a sweet and wonderful person. That's crazy you had those dreams about him and it was actually correct.

I often wonder why so people come into our lives. Seems he came to help you through life and show you the true meaning of love. Like you said, he made you believe in love again. I bet you guys shared so much great time and memories with you.

Try to remember, you also helped him. Whether he knew he was gonna die or not, take comfort in knowing his last days were spent with you and it sounds like he was happy. I'm sorry the relationship was cĥr short.

I think it's a beautiful idea to go to the park and enjoy and celebrate him. I know it's tough. I can't promise you it won't hurt for a long time but at some point it was for easier to deal with.

I hope you can make it to the park and have aome peace and solace.

Your reply made me smile so much. I just appreciate someone caring about the situation and what happened. Thank you so much. I do hope I get to make it to the park today as well, it would be my way of remembering him today!

 

[dontwakemeup]

You're welcome. I fell asleep because i didn't want to play this life today.

Anyhow, did you make it to the park? How's your day going so far? Just checking in to see how you're holding up.

 

[BlueButterfly111]

You're welcome. I fell asleep because i didn't want to play this life today.

Anyhow, did you make it to the park? How's your day going so far? Just checking in to see how you're holding up.

I know how you feel, and I'm sorry that you feel that way. Unfortunately I didn't get to make it to the park today, I had to run some errands with someone. My day has been alright, I just hate that I didn't make it to the park, but maybe another day. I'm not really grieving as much as I was, but it's just the loneliness that's so hard. Thank you, I appreciate you checking in one me! How's your day going?

 

[dontwakemeup]

I know how you feel, and I'm sorry that you feel that way. Unfortunately I didn't get to make it to the park today, I had to run some errands with someone. My day has been alright, I just hate that I didn't make it to the park, but maybe another day. I'm not really grieving as much as I was, but it's just the loneliness that's so hard. Thank you, I appreciate you checking in one me! How's your day going?

I'm glad you're doing better. You can go another day. My day was exactly what I wanted. I stayed in and just relaxed and gave my brain some rest. Thank you for asking

 

[BlueButterfly111]

I'm glad you're doing better. You can go another day. My day was exactly what I wanted. I stayed in and just relaxed and gave my brain some rest. Thank you for asking

You're welcome! I'm glad you had a good day, and you can reach out me anytime. Thanks again

 

[dontwakemeup]

You're welcome! I'm glad you had a good day, and you can reach out me anytime. Thanks again

Thank you and same to you

 

[The_Hunter]

I know most people will ignore this and I understand why. But today is the Birthday of my boyfriend who passed away 6 months ago. It would've been only my second year celebrating his Birthday with him. I miss him eternally, like I said before he is my soulmate, and my heart and soul felt like it
was connected to his. I can still feel his energy really strongly, I can still feel his body close to mine. It felt like in this life, we were supposed to meet each other before our deaths. And even though I won't see him again in this lifetime, I just hope that we can be connected again somehow after I die. I've never felt overly attached to this life, but he gave me a reason to believe in something.

He was so special to me, so perfect for me, his death was the most hurtful thing to finally break my heart completely. I still dream about him. Idk why I'm writing this, I know most will ignore it, and I'm not getting my point across good. I guess it's just because I miss him so much and I don't have anyone else to talk to about it who understands. And I wish I could've spent his Birthday with him. I know he's in a better place and I'm not grieving so much anymore, I just will always miss him in this lifetime.

No one really understands or cares about my feelings, or the connection we had, but he would've understood. But I still keep trying to get my feelings across for some reason. To lose a soulmate, at least for me is such a lonely thing that no one understands. I can spend time with so many people on this Earth, but none of it is comparable to even a few minutes spent with him.

I don't know how much longer I have on this Earth, I think this might be my last year. I guess this is my little way of honoring my baby's memory, somehow. I'm still so in love with him, I will love him forever.

Happy birthday to your boyfriend <3

 

[BlueButterfly111]

Happy birthday to your boyfriend <3

Thank you!

 

[The_Hunter]

I hope you're able to remember all the beautiful moments you had with him and truly celebrate his wonderful life ^^
Maybe it could help you feel better about things if you like bought a little cake to celebrate or something, if that's a fair option for you. If not it's all good and just as special nonetheless; just an idea~!

 

[EternalShore]

I'm really sorry to hear about that~ :( Losing someone you love so dearlyand were so close to must be so awful~ >_< because now, you're alone and the person you most cherish is gone forever~ :( I'm really sorry~ :( I hope you're able to cherish what great things and moments you 2 shared together while you were here together, and I pray he's in Heaven now where you 2 may meet again~ :)

 

[The_Hunter]

Maybe it could help you feel better about things if you like bought a little cake to celebrate or something, if that's a fair option for you. If not it's all good and just as special nonetheless; just an idea~!

 

[human909]

I am very sorry for the pain you have to deal with.

 

[BlueButterfly111]

I hope you're able to remember all the beautiful moments you had with him and truly celebrate his wonderful life ^^
Maybe it could help you feel better about things if you like bought a little cake to celebrate or something, if that's a fair option for you. If not it's all good and just as special nonetheless; just an idea~!

Yes, thank you, that's what I'm trying to do! He was in my thoughts all day today. Well the day is almost over now, and I'm getting ready for bed soon. But one thing I always do to remember him is go visit the park we used to walk at together. I didn't get a chance to do it today but hopefully tomorrow. Thanks a lot!

 

[The_Hunter]

I think, he truly is still living with you, in your own heart in your own mind, in a way. I mean, in a cognitive sense. The way you remember him is like the way he remember himself.

 

[BlueButterfly111]

I'm really sorry to hear about that~ :( Losing someone you love so dearlyand were so close to must be so awful~ >_< because now, you're alone and the person you most cherish is gone forever~ :( I'm really sorry~ :( I hope you're able to cherish what great things and moments you 2 shared together while you were here together, and I pray he's in Heaven now where you 2 may meet again~ :)

Aw thank you so much! He's been in my thoughts all day, and I cherish the memories that we have together. I just know wherever he is he's okay and he's in a better place than this world now. Thank you so much for saying that. I do hope we meet again one day as well.

 

[The_Hunter]

Yes, thank you, that's what I'm trying to do! He was in my thoughts all day today. Well the day is almost over now, and I'm getting ready for bed soon. But one thing I always do to remember him is go visit the park we used to walk at together. I didn't get a chance to do it today but hopefully tomorrow. Thanks a lot!

God, I've walked with a friend in a park, too. Sometimes I've gone past that and remembered how we walked together. It truly does bring back the spirit of that person, taking us back along our trails. And while I still keep in touch with my friend, I know it must be comforting for you to know those memories back through those places <3

May you find comfort and love down those paths you walked down. It is a beautiful memory, a good memory. Best of love <3

Yes, thank you, that's what I'm trying to do! He was in my thoughts all day today. Well the day is almost over now, and I'm getting ready for bed soon. But one thing I always do to remember him is go visit the park we used to walk at together. I didn't get a chance to do it today but hopefully tomorrow. Thanks a lot!

Ever listened to the song We'll Meet Again by Vera Lynn by the way? Your wording reminded me of it.

 

[BlueButterfly111]

God, I've walked with a friend in a park, too. Sometimes I've gone past that and remembered how we walked together. It truly does bring back the spirit of that person, taking us back along our trails. And while I still keep in touch with my friend, I know it must be comforting for you to know those memories back through those places <3

May you find comfort and love down those paths you walked down. It is a beautiful memory, a good memory. Best of love <3


Ever listened to the song We'll Meet Again by Vera Lynn by the way? Your wording reminded me of it.

Thank you! And no I haven't listened to it but I'll have to listen to it soon.

 

[my endless blue]

Hello.
I'm sorry you are feeling this pain.
My girlfriend broke up with me in last november and i'm kind in despair.
She also felt like home to me and i don't really know what to do. I don't know if I should insist since she says she loves me or if I should just let go. But letting go it's like letting go part of me.
I know it's different cases but i just want you to know that you are worthy of love.
Be safe!

 

[telltaletail]

One of the things I really want in my lifetime is to experience such a profound connection, like a lot of us. I can't even begin to imagine if I'd actually found it and had it ripped away after such a short amount of time. I am so, so deeply sorry.

 

[butimstillsoblue]

You got your point across very clearly. I read your post a couple of times.

I hear your words. I hear how much he meant to you and the special connection you had.

I understand the feeling you have that nobody really cares how you feel. I feel the same way. I think it's mostly because everyone is going through their own stuff and feeling their own feelings, whatever they are. Keep expressing how you feel for as long as you need to. Some people will hear you. I did.

 

[Manic Panic]

I understand your feelings , the man I was supposed to marry one day took his life a year ago.

He will forever and always be my soulmate and each day it's harder to go on without him.
The grief will eat you up ... time isn't your enemy it's what helps heal you .
If you need someone to talk with about anything, I'm always available to chat .

 

[arandomname]

I'm sorry you lost your home, I know what that feels like. Losing a soulmate is hard.