Hate Birthdays?

[MisterOGBongWater]

i hate mine. i always end up feeling more invisible than ever. and it feels so stupid and petty and childish but its my birthday today and no one gives a shit. i dont really have anyone, my girlfriend but were dead flat broke this month so theres nothing she can do for me that she really wanted to do. but im not mad at her. weve only been together for 2 years. theres people ive known my whole life who just dont give a shit. including the people whos birthdays i took the time out to acknowledge. nobody remembers me in return. is that a lot to ask? maybe its my fault that i dont make myself important but how much can i really do of that. at the end of the day i cant seem to connect to anybody. i dont even know why my girlfriend really loves me but im grateful so does. im sure ill enjoy my day with her money or not. its a good day if shes around no matter what but i just wish i had friends who cared like she did, People dont think about me and i have to accept that i suppose but it hurts a lot. like really hurts. my chest hurts typing this. i think i hate my birthday because it affirms the belief that i dont matter. i mean do i really matter at all?

 

[TorturedCerebrum]

i think i hate my birthday because it affirms the belief that i dont matter

At least you matter to your girlfriend, so there is someone
Birthdays as of late have just been events to affirm how lonely one is, I understand how you feel, I've grown to dislike my birthday as well.

Nonetheless, happy birthday! I hope you are able to at least enjoy it somewhat ^_^

 

[lastappleonearth]

Birthdays as of late have just been events to affirm how lonely one is

Couldn't have said it better, birthdays suck, when you're lonely

 

[thelostautistic]

Happy Birthday. I really resonate with everything you're saying. Birthdays are hard when people forget or don't care. You do matter though and you shouldn't have to make yourself more important for people to care. You're not alone with hating your birthday. Mine was 2 days ago and my friends cancelled on me. It's so hard.

 

[Pluto]

 

[lilb0wpeep]

as it may or may not be my birthday today I to relate. For me it's a sense of shame and embarrassment of wanting some kind of comfort abut also hating and fearing that same things because of 'what it leads to'— ex. It being used against me in some way or another. Or even just the utter disappointment of the day. As well as the realization of how little has changed, and the fact that I've lived another unbearable year and still don't have a way out, it's all to sad and overwhelming.