Hanging every night

[lotus.dead]

I'm not ready to die, but every day i have thoughts that bother me, make me feel worthless and depressed. after 2 months of being clean, i started cutting again. it felt so satisfying and relieving, but after a week it stopped working. i got so desperate now i hang myself partially by tying a pair of pants to the bed frame. my lips would turn blue, and i could barely move my arms and legs but it would calm me down so much that i could fall asleep (i untie and put the pants under the pillow). it's been going on for a week and a half but it's starting to work less and less. now i feel like fully hanging myself just to calm down.

 

[ugulamugula]

This could give you brain damage, don´t do this long term. I did this myself and can tell u it´s not worth it

 

[lotus.dead]

This could give you brain damage, don´t do this long term. I did this myself and can tell u it´s not worth it

sorry for asking, but brain damage how?

 

[bl33ding_heart]

sorry for asking, but brain damage how?

Constantly cutting off circulation to your brain will eventually lead to brain damage and irreversible neurological problems. It could also cause you to have a stroke.

 

[lotus.dead]

i cant stop, im addicted to hanging. sometimes i hope i overdo it.