Discussion Does anyone else fantasize/daydream about CTB so much

[LXR515]

At this point in my life literally anytime I think about the day and the moment I get to CTB and be free like every exact detail of it is so relieving and calming. It genuinely feels like meditation or taking drugs or having a great hangout with your friends, it's that exact feeling of just freedom and joy, like I could honestly cry thinking about finally being at peace and no longer having to deal with anything. It's quite ironic that suicide is what helps me cope in my final weeks/months here.

 

[mirrorlize]

Researching on how to go brings me security and comfort.

 

[iamjustapebble]

same

 

[xXiloveyouXx]

Yes, it's where my mind goes when it wanders

 

[nelaB]

Researching on how to go brings me security and comfort.

Same here, a lot of security and comfort.

 

[FuneralCry]

I always do as to peacefully cease existing and finally be free from this existence so torturous and terrible is just all I hope for, I just want peace from this existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake.

To suffer in this existence will just always be the most dreadful abomination to me and all I want is to erase this existence, I just want for all to be forgotten for me in the peace of non-existence with no more torture and no more suffering. This existence just never should had been imposed and it's so dreadful how it was with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, all I want is peace from this existence so cruel and futile that only ever tortures existing beings all for the sake of it, for me non-existence is just all that could ever be positive.