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absolute_n0thing

absolute_n0thing

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Jul 29, 2023
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So I'm too depressed to have the motivation to do anything in life rn. I don't go to work, I haven't socialized, I don't do anything unless I absolutely have to, and even then it's a fight.

I don't really care in terms of myself, but I feel really guilty for my housemates. I've been heavily slacking in terms of my chores for the house, and people are fairly getting annoyed. I feel bad, but I can't even tell my partner about my mental state, how the Hell can I even try explain my situation to my housemates?

Like I'm so serious when I say the depression is at the point where there's mold in my room, I shower only once my skin is too itchy to bear, and only eat once it hurts. I literally cannot do jack shit, let alone deep clean a bathroom, but I feel so bad about it and I don't know what to do.

And on top of it, I feel extra bad cause now I'm worried they're going to feel guilty for getting annoyed with me for being bad at cleaning after I've ctb, but I don't want that. I just don't know what to do, I hate it here
 
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