Venting God I dont know what to do. I feel basically dead already.

[SamuelClemens400]

About a month ago my best friend of 15 years said he could no longer be my friend and it destroyed me. My heart was destroyed when he said that but I knew it was coming because of course that is what I would get in life. Ever since though I have just felt dead. My plan has been to CTB for years but I stuck around to spare him but now hes gone so I am just going all in to the CTB route. All I really want now is to die and I will do what I need to achieve that. I just want the heartache to stop but I know it will never go away. How could I forget what was basically a brother to me. Since money is the biggest factor in CTB for me I guess I should be getting myself a job soon and saving up a couple hundred so I can end it. I would have liked to have been dead before the end of the year but idk if I can manage that now. In any case, here's to the heartache

 

[Elegy]

and your question for us is.... What is life worth, when your best friend, is no longer your friend, and money. How to make.

 

[Toonloon]

I know exactly how u feel. I had an asshole I knew for years just dog me after i started opening up about real feelings about wanting to off myself and self mutilate myself. People suck. I'm sorry you got dogged like that by someone you really cared about.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you have to go through this, I can imagine it must be painful to be in this situation. I understand it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. I hope you find peace.